My Sensitive Son . Ch1

I have always been shy, quiet and calm. I’ve never been something above normal, at anything, at any stuff you would imagine. Just an ordinary woman at her 40s. A boring job at a boring office, so boring that even talking about it bores me, watching TV, Cooking and cleaning. So ordinary and routine.

I lost my husband to a car accident. I was happily married and I think my life was so much better before his death. It’s been 9 years now… 9 years on my own, 9 years just me, Mona. I believe my passion died with that car accident, … it died and made me this boring, fat, unattractive mom.

I have a son. He is the only interesting thing in my life, maybe the only reason I am alive. Luis is a college student and to be honest he is really smarter than me. He is the only hope I have in my boring life. I’ll do anything I can to make him successful and I think I am doing a great job- perhaps the greatest thing I’ve ever done.

Luis studies in our town, so he is always around. We have a great connection based on respect. He never talks loud with me, and honestly I have never seen him angry or even depressed. He really cares about me and I have the same attitude too. Sometimes I think he is too romantic, he really gets me and I am completely happy to have him around the house.

Last week I was watching TV. I was in living room and spread myself on the big couch. It was 6 pm and I heard the door opened. It was Luis. He seemed a little tired cause he left early in the morning. I kind of missed his face. I turned my head to see his beautiful brown eyes. He was obviously tired but as soon as he saw me, a big charming smile came on his face.

My Sensitive Son . Ch1

“Hi Mom”
Luis told and came to living room. I rose and sat on the couch to give him some space. I straightened my skirt as he approached the couch and reached his right hand to shake mine. It’s our special tradition, we always shake hands, no matter what.

“Hi sweety. How was your day?”
He sat next to me, kissed me briefly on right cheek and let my hand go.
“Not good enough.”
He said reluctantly.
“Something is wrong Lu?”
I raised my eyebrow curiously and continued. He seemed unwilling to talk.
“Never mind Mom. It’s not a really big deal, I am just a little tired. What are you watching?”

I dropped the conversation because I knew him very well. He is really smart and wise so you should never continue these situations. That would make him a little uncomfortable and that’s the last thing I want.

“Some comedy show. Let me make you some green tea. Change your clothes and tea will be ready honey. ”
I told him and stood up. I wanted to go to the kitchen when I saw his tired and sad eyes. His eyes have always been this innocent and when he is a little sad, I definitely notice. I couldn’t help myself, grabbed his head and placed a strong, loud kiss on his left cheek. I love the way his stubbly face feels on my lips.

“Don’t be sad young man, please!”
“I’m not Mom. Don’t pamper me young lady!”
I gave him a big loving laugh and headed to the kitchen. He says funny sometimes which I really like. I grabbed our blue teapot and began to make green tea, Lu’s favorite drink. After 10 minutes I poured tea into two small cups and returned to the living room.

He was already there, sitting on the couch, reading a book. He changed his clothes. He wore a white t-shirt and long shorts. I put the cups on the table and sat close to him. He smelled great. It was nothing unusual. He always wears a remarkable amount of perfume, I love his taste, especially in scents.
“What a magnificent smell Lu! What are you reading handsome?”

He looked at me with those big eyes and showed me book’s cover. Beautiful Disaster. He was reading another romantic book.
“Good choice. It’s the time, Drink your tea son. ”

He started to drink his tea silently. He still seemed a little unhappy and it bothered me.
“Seriously, what’s wrong honey? What happened out there today?”
“Nothing Mom, nothing happened outside.”
“So something happened inside! What is that?”

He was reluctant and quiet again. He finished drinking his tea.
“Come on honey. What happened here? Is it me? What’s wrong about me?!”
“Jesus! No mom, It’s not about you. It’s about me. But seriously I can’t tell you.”
I got curious as hell. What did I do wrong? I have always been so gentle and kind to him.
“Why not? Do you afraid of me? Are we not that close? What is it Lu?”

He took a deep breath. His face got kind of red.
“Do you want the truth? I should leave you so soon. I miss you already.”
I got shocked, worried and at same time, excited!
“Did you want to hear that? You raised a Mommas boy.”

Lu continued. He was too sad at that time. I look at him, sitting sad, I wanted to hug him tightly.
“What are you saying honey? Where do you want to go?”
“In a few months, I will graduate from college. You know the city, I should leave here to find a real job.”

I have not seen him this sad, never before. I grabbed his right hand in my palms, brought it to my lips.
“You are right Lu. I don’t know what to say. We will do something by then, don’t worry…”
I really didn’t know what to say. I just kissed his big hand. I starred in his sad eyes and kiss his hands again.

“Don’t be sad son. We still have a few months. And when you leave here, you will meet a wonderful girl, so better than your previous girlfriends. You won’t be alone son and you won’t miss this fat old mother of yours, of course!”

He pulled his hand back but didn’t break our eye contact.
“Fat? Old? Have you ever seen yourself in a mirror mom?”
My heart beat fast. At least faster than the last few years. His perfume was still great.

“You are the best looking mom I have ever seen. And that’s just your appearance. Your personality… That’s why I cannot leave you. Never. Ever never!”
His face was like he was going to cry! I knew that he was a sensitive man, but I have never known him this way. I got so emotional. More than whole of last few years, combined!

I opened my arms and whispered with sob. “Come here honey.”
He leaned toward me and released himself in my arms. His head was against my breasts and I could smelled his hair. I start smelling his brown hair unconsciously.
“Don’t be sad, please. I won’t let that happen, I will be there for you, always”. I whispered quietly into his ears.
“How mom? How would you do that?” He didn’t move a bit.
“I’ll come with you, wherever you go.” I said in a really low voice.
“What?” He said and pull his head back, looking right into my eyes again.
“What? What should I do without you? Who I have here except you?”
“Are you serious mom? Do you say this to just comfort me?”
“No kiddo. I am so sure. I really don’t have any reason to stay here if you go.”
He paused for a few seconds, just looking at me with his large killing eyes. And suddenly he attacked me! He started to kiss my face. First kiss on my right cheek, second one on the left, third on the forehead. I love his tender lips.

“Stop idiot. You are killing me Lu!” I told him and pushed his face from mine. I got hot somehow and filled with lots of boiling emotions. I smiled at him and starred into his eyes. I noticed his soft lips. I put my hand right behind his head and pulled him gently to me. I kissed his soft wet lips.

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