I am sharing this story which happened in my life. I always loved my family. But there was something else more than my love towards my family which made me to do such a thing. Actually, it’s still continuing. It’s just my feelings.

My husband is a business man. He works a lot, and business is everything to him. I am a housewife, named Janani. Though I have done my graduation and had intention to work, I left my job and stayed at home as a housewife after the request of my husband. He doesn’t want me to work. He doesn’t like me to move in the society with other men. But he is a big time flirt. He likes to hang around with girls and spends a lot of time with them. But never allows me to talk with anyone from his business side. This is about my family and me.

I am aged 26, and I was wheatish. My height was 5’4 which was somewhat an average Indian women height, and I weighed around 56 kgs. I was 36C, and was really happy with the way I look. I was looked by many while I go out, which made me proud about myself.

Though we were rich, I didn’t have the chance to mingle with any of the outsiders, which made me feel very bored. All I could see in my house are the servants who work for us. They are working for a long time, and are pretty old. I had a friend named Rekha. I always speak with her and I used to tell her about everything happening in my life. I have told her many a time about my current state in my house, and the way I live the life. She insisted me to do something different from my usual life. She suggested me to start some business, and do something on my own. Since, my hubby was not that interested in me mingling with the outside world, especially guys, I decided to start a business which comprises mostly of women. A group of housewives talked about this over the phone and decided to make it big. We were wondering what business to do. We had frequent calls and meetings. Whenever, there was a meeting, I was asked to come to Rekha’s house. So I always run when I get a call, and catch an auto or taxi and rush to Rekha’s place. They all come in their car. There are some 3 cars in my house. Since, I don’t know driving, I don’t take them out. My husband never thought that he should appoint a driver for a car. He was busy with his business.

As days went by, we met every time in each one’s house. The ladies suggested me to learn driving and be on my own. They said that, it would be my first lesson to become independent. I thought about it and readily accepted as I badly wanted to be independent. The same night, I asked my husband to teach me to drive a car. He looked at me, and said “it’s a very difficult task for you, so don’t think about it”. I was so disappointed. I shouted at him that I am going to take the wheels tomorrow irrespective of whether I know to drive or not. I don’t care if I go and hit someone or somewhere. He understood my anger, and said that he will arrange for a session to teach me driving. I was a bit happy. I hugged him thanking him, and kissed his chin. He kissed me back in my lips, and got back to his laptop. That kiss was just a formality kiss, just to reciprocate my kiss. I kissed him again in his cheeks, holding his face. He didn’t move, but was there showing his face to me. I kissed him more, and thought I was unto something that night. I moved his laptop from his lap, and sat over his lap. He looked at me and said there is lots of work for him to do. I said, “Just this one night, please”. He was not ready but. Instead he said he cannot, and moved me and took his laptop and started to work again. I was so frustrated, that I went out of the room. I called up Rekha and was speaking with her. She spoke with me for some time, and said she is going to have a good time with her husband, and hung up the call. I felt very bad, and went to my room again to find my husband sleeping peacefully. Without knowing what to do, I slept next to him with tears rolling down my cheeks.

The next day started as usual. Me working in the kitchen, and preparing food for my hubby. As I entered the dining room, and served my hubby with the breakfast, he said to me “are you serious with your driving classes?” I readily said yes. He asked me why suddenly. I told him that I might travel frequently if I get into that business that we were about to start. He was not so happy with me starting a business on my own. He said,” why do u want to strain yourself. It’s a bad world out there. You better stay back at home and be happy”. I was so irritated, and replied “I am trying to be happy, and that’s why I am going to start a business”. He looked at me, and said that he will send a driver to teach me. I was amazed when I heard him saying that he will send one of his men to teach me. I asked him again, “what did u say?” He again replied the same that he will send one driver. I didn’t know what to say. I just said OK. He left for work. I made some calls and informed my friends about my improvement. They felt happy for me, and even congratulated me.

After some time, someone was at the door. I opened the door, and happened to see a guy in his mid 20s standing there.

He was dark, and well built. His height must be around 6’2. Had broad shoulders, and an attractive face, with an amazing eye sight. His voice was manly, and was husky. He sound polite and seemed gentle.

“Yes!!”

“Hello madam, I am Raju, and I was sent my Mr. Kumar.”

“Mr. Kumar sent you for what”

“He asked me to teach driving to his wife. Are you his wife?”

“Oh hi. It’s me. Come on in”

“It’s ok. I will wait outside near the car. You can come anytime. Just give me the keys”. Saying this, he got the keys from me and went near the car. He started to inspect the car and was ready for me.

I was surprised by my Hubby’s quick response, and was surprised to see such a young guy to be sent by my hubby.

I was in my night dress. So I changed myself to a salwar and I was about to walk out of my house, when the phone rang.

“Hello, who is it?”

“It’s Rekha. Aren’t you coming now for the meeting?”

“Oh, I completely forgot. I actually started for my first driving class.”

“Oh oh. Try to come today. It’s important.”

“Ok. I will somehow come.” I hung up the call, and went in to my room again to change myself to a sari. When I go for the meetings I try to dress nicely.

I came out of my house, and told Raju that we can start. I sat in the front seat and watched him drive. I also told him that I am going for the meeting. He was explaining things while he was driving. As the place came, he dropped and was waiting for me. I went in, and that day we made some good decisions regarding our business. We finalized our business that day, and decided to essence extraction and flavors. Some already had some idea. So my job at first was to invest some, and learn quickly the business from them. I liked the spirit within us, when some of us said, that we will become top business people in course of days. I was very happy.

While returning, Raju noticed that I was happy.

“Madam, u seem very happy”

“Yes, I am. My business got confirmed. And I’ll become like my husband one day.”

“That’s nice to hear.”

“Why do u want to be like your husband? You can make it big in business when compared to him, if you do it perfectly.”

“What do you mean by that? Do you intend to say that Kumar is not so good in business?”

“Sorry ma’am. I shouldn’t have spoken to you like that”

“It’s ok. You just can tell me anything”

And he started what’s happening in the business. It seems to be that he was an MBA graduate and had to shift into driving because he didn’t get a good job. When heard, I was shocked. He had good knowledge in business, and was up to date in the current happenings.

“Did you tell Kumar, that you are an MBA graduate?”

“I did tell him. After that only I got this job ma’am”

“Didn’t he recognize your skills?”

“He said that his current requirement is a driver. And he appointed me as a driver.”

I was shocked hearing this. I felt sad for this guy. I didn’t even know what to do for him. I could talk with Kumar about this, but I was well aware of how things will go when we talk, so I decided not to talk with Kumar. That day, he was teaching me how to shift gears, what is what, etc… But I was completely lost. I just couldn’t concentrate on driving, instead I was just wondering about his character. His willingness to earn, despite being graduate, he is driving cars. We just talked for some more time, and I came to know that he is an orphan. I wanted to do something for this guy, but I was in a situation where I couldn’t do anything. All I can do is be silent and not talk to Kumar about this, so that it might save his job.

I did learn to drive cars, but I was not that good. I was not a quick learner. I was driving car under Raju’s guidance. In his absence I just went and hit against a wall once. So, I never took the car without him. As days went by, we came to know a lot about each other. I got him a mobile so that I can call him whenever I need. I used to send messages to his mobile. We used to chat. This made him happy. He thought that he got a good friend in me, but was behaving from a distant since me being the boss’s wife.

My business developed nicely. To everyone’s surprise I was grasping the business very swiftly and easily. I was able to manage things easily. I was able to make key decisions with ease and everyone felt I was one main reason for the business to reach such glorious height. Actually, I learnt everything from Raju. I tell him everything, and he gives me suggestions of what to do, and what not to do. I used his business skills. Though I didn’t expose him to the outside world, he was the key man behind my success. He knew that, and was happy for me. But he deserves something big. I always thought about changing his life for the better. Because an early break is important for everyone. If one doesn’t get that, many settle with what ever they get. I didn’t want Raju to settle his life as a driver.

One day, Kumar didn’t pick up the call or didn’t return the calls either. He didn’t come to my house. He was always punctual. I was confused, what to do. I called him for nearly 20 times. I called Kumar’s office to check whether he has gone there to work. But they said he is not coming to office nowadays as the boss shifted his workplace. With much confusion, I decided to go to his place and checkout what is wrong with him. So, I took the car, and started to his place. I didn’t know how to reach there. I asked the route to many people, and I reached there. I almost reached there, and when I was about to park the car, I got the call from Raju.

“Hello…”

“Ma’am, I am sorry. I was feeling sick, so only I couldn’t lift your call. I couldn’t even inform you because I was sleeping from last night”

“It’s ok Raju. I understand.”

“Please don’t tell to Sir about this.”

“I won’t. But, do come out of your house and look outside. I am confused which is your house.”

Confused Raju, came out and watched from his balcony. He waved to me and talked over the mobile.

“What happened ma’am. Anything serious?”

“No. I was very much worried about you. That’s why I came to see you.”

“Ok. I will come home. You please go back home ma’am.”

“Why Raju? Won’t you invite me to into your house?”

“But this place is almost like a slum ma’am.”

“So what? There is nothing wrong in me coming to your house right?”

“No no. Not like that”

He came down and took me to his house. Actually, I shouldn’t say it as a house, it’s just a room. But I loved that place. He has just one room. The rest is open space. It’s in the fourth floor, and from where you can get a nice view of the nearby places. Especially the beach. The whole place looked like a heaven to me. As we entered the room, it was filled with his dresses completely. A typical bachelor’s room. He was trying to clean his place, since I was there. For him I was like a queen. So, he tried his level best to show that his place is one good palace. As I was sitting and looking around, he made tea for me.

“Hey, you are not feeling well, and why are you doing this?”

“Its ok ma’am. You have come to my place, and I should make you something.”

“Raju, stop treating me like a guest. Look at me like a normal friend”

“Ok ma’am.”

“And, please stop calling me ma’am. It really makes me feel old. Am I talking like a boss to you. I am friendly to you right? So call me with my name. FYI… It’s Janani.”

“Ok ma’am.. err.. Sorry, Janani.”

He felt very uncomfortble saying my name. But I really liked it when he said my name.

He was trembling while talking to me.

“Are you alright Raju? You still seem very sick”

“No Janani, I am all right.”

“Liar.”

I went near him and I touched his neck with my hand to feel his fever. It was hot.

“Did you take any medicines?”

“No, not yet”

“Are you crazy? You are not a kid. Don’t you know to take care of your health?”

He was smiling.

“I am not scolding you to smile. Realize what is happening around. You were there with me to make many big decisions in my business. Even today I had one meeting. But I couldn’t attend that without your inputs. I need you in all ways Raju. This is just a small thing, but I am trying to make you reach a good level. And I want you to take it seriously and understand what we are doing. Do you understand?”

“Yeah..”

I didn’t know whether he understood or not. But for me, he said yes.

“I missed you today. Infact I missed you for the last 2 days. I curse myself, that why I gave break to you on weekends. And this weekend, you didn’t even contact me by any means. I got you a mobile so that you can intimate me anything and everything. Why don’t you understand that?”

He was standing there silently without talking anything. Scolding him all the way, I went to the other side of the room, to the so called kitchen and made him some food to eat. He was not willing to let me do that. But since I was scolding him, he couldn’t do anything.

That day, I had the lunch with him. I didn’t attend any calls that came to my mobile. I didn’t care about the business. I didn’t care about the family. I just had one good day in my life.

“Hey Janani, how come you drove the car? Didn’t you make any mistakes?”

“Even I don’t know how. I just thought about you and nothing else. Amazing.., wow.. So, I have learnt to drive completely..”

“So, you no longer need me right?”

“Hey, I always need you”

He was happy hearing this. And when I was about to leave, he got a call to his mobile. It was some girl. He didn’t attend the call, but he ignored it. I looked at him suspiciously.

“Are you coming to work tomorrow?”

“No, I am not sure Janani”

He got the call again. He ignored again. I took the mobile from him, just when that girl sent him a message. In which she has sent that, she wanted to be with him. So please don’t go to work tomorrow. I looked at him and got so angry.

“Is this the reason, you are not coming tomorrow?”

“Uh, No, err.. Nothing like that Janani. Just because of my sickness.”

“Don’t lie Raju. You are fine the whole day with me. And now you are not coming for any reason?”

He was silent. I just walked away from that place. He tried following me and convincing me, but I slammed the car door, and started off. That night, he tried calling me several times. He sent a lot of sorry messages. I didn’t respond to any. He might have got tensed. He might have not had food. He might not get sleep. Despite knowing this, I was not ready to respond, because I was busy crying in my room. There was no one to ask me why I am crying. Even I was not so aware of why I am crying. I slept like that crying without having dinner.

Woke up the next morning. Did the usual works, but with less tempo. Felt, I should have responded to that guy’s calls. I felt bad that I made him tense for nothing. I thought of calling, but realized he will be here within few mins for sure, and can solve this directly instead of call.

As expected he was early today. He sent me a message saying I am near the car, ready for today’s work. I saw him standing near the car, and I was happy. As I came out of the kitchen, Kumar came and said that he is going late to office as he some plans. I was upset, that it will take some more time to talk with Raju. I said OK. Time went by. Kumar came out from the room well dressed and was about to leave. He went out near the car, and suddenly he called Raju.

“Hey, you…”

“Me, sir?”

“Yeah, come here.”

“Yes, Sir.”

“My driver has not come today. So, drive this car today.”

“Ok sir”

I was so disappointed. They left the place. I continued with my job, half heartedly. I was so weak that day that I made some wrong shipments. Rekha was shocked to see me so dull and making errors in the work. She asked me what happened. I didn’t want to reveal anything. I said nothing. She asked me to take rest. I left back home early that evening. I was sitting silently, when I got a call from Kumar.

“Janani, just hand over the suitcase that I’ve kept in the bedroom to the guy I am sending. I am going to Mumbai for some urgent business dealing. It might get delayed. I might be in a situation to travel abroad from there. So, I will keep you updated. Ok? Bye..”

“Ok.”

He didn’t wait for a reply from me. But he hung up the call. As he said, I gave the suitcase to the guy who came to claim it. It was around 10 PM. I got a call from Kumar, saying that he is boarding the flight, and asked me to go to my parent’s house if I want. And as usual, he didn’t care to wait for my reply, instead just hung up the call. I felt like being alone in this world, and tears started running down my cheeks. I didn’t get sleep. I walked throughout the house, and I went to my balcony. From there, I saw a guy standing near the back gate. I got frightened. I went down and searched for my mobile, to call someone. As I went down, my mobile was ringing and it was Raju, who is calling me.