Mera Naam Ravi hai. Main medium family se belong hu. Main padai me tej tha. Main dusro se alag hu sav yeh baat ko mante hai. Main chhote se hi thoda alag soch ka tha.Main kisi chij se darta nahi tha. Main dil me jo chij hai usko bahar jaldi hi bata deta. Main play boy to nahi tha fir vi maine college life me 4 /5 girl friend banaya tha. Mujhe lagta tha,meri economic problem ke wajah se jyada ladki mere sath lamba affair me nahi rehete the. Maine bahut ladki ke sath sex vi kiya un ladikiyo se kisi kisike sath toh sex to repeatly vi kiya. Maine bahut ladki ko purpose vi kiyatha. Main amir to nahi tha. Isliye mera kosis sex ke liye ladki ko patana hota tha. Mera makhsad un ladkiyo ko bistara tak le janeke liye hi hota tha woh vi free me..Sex ka mamile me mera fokat ka khaneka aadat jesa ho chuka tha. Mujhe ghar me dil nahi lagta tha. Mera bap ka naam Devdhar hai. Bap ek sharabi bigde huwe insan the. Unka ghar me na aaneka pata hota na janeka. Unka jinda honese achha to marjana tha. Maine kai dafa baap ko khudkhusi karne ke liye vi bola. Main vi utna sarif to nahi tha fir vi mera apna pariwar hota toh main bap jesa kavi nahi hota. Sharav toh main vi pita hu. Mera badan sharav ke liye perfect hai, yesa mujhe lagta hai. Bap toh sharav ki nase me let let ke ghar aate the. Kitne bar to maine laat vi mardiya. Ghar me sukh aur shanti ka naam maa hi thi. Meri maa ka naam Meghna hai. Maa ki wajah se hi mujhe apna ghar,ghar jesa lagta tha. Uski hath ki khana uski pyar mujhe hamesa khus kar sakte the. Yese koi bath toh nahi tha,fir vi meri maa mujhe bahut khubsurat lagti thi. Maa mera bhai jo mujh se 9saal chhota tha usko mujh se vi kai jyada pyar karti. Mera bhai ka naam Rohan hai. Main 17 sal ka tha,Mera Bhai 8 saal ka aur maa 36 saal ki aur bap 40 saal ke. Ish hisab se mera bhai aur mera umar ka fasla bahut tha. Din yese nikal rehethe. Maine naukari vi karna suru kardiya. Av mujhe khud vi ghar ka jimmewar aadmi mehesus ho raha tha. . Yeh kuch din ke bad ki baat tha. Raat me mera sharabi bap aagaya. Us raat mujhe us se bahut ghussa aagaya. Meri kamai se kharcha pani chal raha tha aur woh maja le raha tha aur to aur ghar me uski wajah se karz ke upar karz lag rahe the. Maine usko ghar se dhakka deke bahar nikaldiya. Maa mujhe rokne ki prayas kar rahi thi. Woh raat bap mujhe bahut gali dene laga ‘sala harami apne bap ko dhakka marta hai! Madarchod kahika. Sala Maine paida kiya hai tujhe. Aaj yeh din dikha diya ,.’ kya kya anab sanab bolne laga,gali dene ki to uski aadat thi. Maine vi boldiya’paida toh kutta vi karta ,apni hawas mitane ka kaam kiya tha tune bas.’Main bap ko yesa gali deta jesa woh mujhe deta. Yeh hamara bich pehele se chalta tha. Maa ko yeh sav baat bardast nai hota tha aur woh mujhe rokti thi. Aur baap fir ghar me ghus jata tha. Woh din vi yesa hi huwa. Hum sab ne khana khaya lekin bap ne nahi khaya.Woh nase me itna kho gaya tha ki mere gali usko achha lag raha tha. Woh maa ko chhedte bolne laga ‘dekha Meghna hamara beta samajhdar hogaya haha. Mujhe koi ghussa nai maine galat kaam kiya toh mujhe saja milna chahiye,chal maine maaf kiya haha’ yesa bolke usne maa ki moti gaal mera samne pakad liya. Jav vi bap mera aage maa ko chhedta toh mujhe bahut ghussa hota tha. Lekin maa jav bap ko datti toh mujhe bahut khusi lagta tha.Mujhe dhire dhire khavar hone laga main bap se jalta hu. Aur yeh bhi mehesus hone laga main andar hi andar maa ko bahut chahane laga hu woh vi kisi dusri dusri tarah se.Kyu ki maa meri tarif kare aur bap ki dhajjiya udaye mujhe bahut achha lagta tha. Maine jiwan me kai ladkiya ko apne dost banaya bahut ke sath sex vi kiya lekin main kisi ladkise lamba rista ya dosti jod nai paya. Main sochta tha iski reason mera economic hai lekin yeh fact nai tha jyada relation main khud todta tha. Mujhe dhire dhire khavar ho raha tha. Main ladki me ajib sa kasis dhudta tha. Av mujhe ehesas hone laga tha main har ladkime wohi kasis dhudta tha jo kasis mere maa ki sath tha. Woh muskan woh sajagi aur woh hasrat kamal ki baat hai. Unki aawaj unki baal unki aakh unki chal unke nasile adaye har chij dil behelane wala tha. Har dusri ladki mujhe bajaru aurat lagte the,lekin Maa mujhe pari ki jesi sundar aur devi ki jesa swabhab wali ek kamuk mada lagne lagi thi. Maa ke sath sex ki fantasy maine kavi nai kiya tha.Nahi kavi maa ko ish najar se dikhatha. . Maa ke liye andar basi hui hawas ki chah tav bahar aaya jav woh raat mere sath kuch ajib hogaya. Woh raat bap maa ko bahut chhed rehethe aur maa vi utna birodh nai kar rahithi jitna main chahata tha. Jav raat me sone ka time huwa to main bhai ko chhod ke bap ka kamare me chalne laga. Bahar tak aawaj aaraha tha. Yesa pehele vi hota tha lekin usdin mujhe iski asar ho raha tha. Main sun raha tha. Bap maa ko apni gandhi sharavi muh se ‘meri darling tuj me jo nasa hai wo daru me vi nai hai, tu to sharav ki tarah ho,jitni purani ho rai ho fir vi kmaal ki lag rahi ho…meri desi daru..’ sala mera harami baap meri khubsurat maa ko sayari mar raha tha.Maine andar ki najrana dikhne ki kosis kiya. Baap ko na toh darwaja band karneka hosh tha nahi khidkiya sala usko apna pant ki fasner ka vi khabar nai hota tha. Fir vi mera baap ek no.1 ka lucky hai,Itni khubsurat aurat mili usko. Maine andar ka najrana dekha maa pettikot me thi woh bistar mila rahi thi. Phir Maa ka aawaj aaya ‘dinvar kutte ka pisav pite ho aur wohi muh se meri tarif kar rahe ho gnadhi zuban se aur jawan beta ke samne anav sanav bolte ho. Meri kismat hi yesa hai.Sharavi kahika’ Bap maa ki badan ko chhote bola ‘beta apna hai na, Avi kaha bada huwa hai wo? Wo to bacha hi hai ,chal mujhe pappi de meri rani’. Mujhe bahut ghussa aagaya sala ghar ka jimmedari main nivaraha hu aur fir vi main bacha hu.Baap Maa ki badan me hath dal raha tha yesa laga uski hath katdu. Main us se jal vi raha tha kitna bada lucky bastard hai mera bap. Jo vi ho maa ki birodh utna majbut nai horaha tha aur mera bap maa ko bistar par dhakka deraha tha. Main nirash horaha tha kya kar sakta tha.Mujhe laga kamare me dakhil hu aur bap ko bahar nikalke uski jaga lelu. Maa ne light band karli aur 0 watt ki light on kardi. Main aur aankh laga raha tha. Mera bap maa ke bagal me soke maa ke bareme anab sanab sayari bol raha tha. Fir sunsan hogaya. Kuch to horaha hoga. Main parishan ho raha tha. Lekin kuch hi der me mera baap khatare lene laga. Kitna jaldi nind me duba mera bebkuf sarabi baap.Mera dil bahut khus huwa,aur shanti mila. Maa ne vi dusri karwat leliya aur sone lagi. Mera bap par mujhe hasi laga aur mujhe usi time khusi vi mila. Mujhe av yesa lagne laga kash me baap ka jaga pura le sakta. Maa sach much purani daru jese thi aur sach me woh mujhe nase ki tarah chadne lagithi. Main dhire dhire maa ka diwana ho chuka tha. Baat khaufnak hai lekin av mujhe dusri ladki se sex karne se behatar maa ke naam par muth marne se achha aanand milne laga tha. Maine aajtak apna dil ki baat kavi andar nai chhupaya tha lekin yeh baat bahut din tak main bahar nikal nahi paraha tha. Main ab maa ko pane ke liye apne taraf se tayari me jutne laga. Main apne pehele ke jawan baap ka tarah much rakhne laga aur ghar me apna peheli huliyako pura badal dala. Av main baap ko kharcha khusi ke sath dene laga tha. Mujhe baap ki daru pineki aadat se koi paresani vi nai hone laga. Sab chij apna plan ki mutabik ho raha tha. Main khud ko av aadmi ka tarah mehesus kar raha tha.Maine apne job handle me vi pura dhyan diya. Maine aapne aapko khub badal dala ek mature aur jimmewar insan me. Woh ek saal me maine khud ko bahut niyantrit aur jimmewar banaya. Kya nai hosakta agar dil se kiya jaye toh! Main bahut kam bolne laga aur hasi vi kam. Mera personality kisi bussiness man ka tarah hogaya. Faltu dosti faltu batein aur faltu chij se khud ko bahar rakha. Mera dimag me kya chal raha hai iska andaj mera co-worker vi andaj nai karsakte the. Main kaam me itna success ke liye jutne laga. Kuch mahine maine na din ki parbah ki na raat ki. Kavi bhi chhote hisse wale se main kam talukh rakhta tha aur apne se bade aadmi se bahut tamij se pesh aata. Maine sab kuch sikh liya tha. Jiwan me pesa kamana ho to khud ko chance me badal dalo. Kya sahi kya galat kuch mat dekho bas faida dekho. Kisika dil tutgaya hai ti kisika jod vi jata hai. Ek dushmani se bahut dost bansakte hai business social network tarah hai. Yeh sav main apna pyar pane ke liye kar raha tha, layak hone ke liye. Maa ka khawahis vi yesa tha, ek bade ghar,ek car aur ek job . Aur main iske liye pura kosis kar raha tha. Har apna salary se main kuch na kuch maa ke liye tofa deta. Maa bahut khus hojati jab main bhai ke liye bhi kuch leke aajata. Bap ko vi kisi aawara ladka ko kharcha dena jesa samajh ke kharcha dena kayam rakha. Bhai ka padai ka jimmewari av main samhalta. Main av ghar ka main piller ban chuka tha. Maa mere sath gharki sav dukh batati jis tarah ek patni apne pati ko keheti hai. Main khus tha lekin andar ki baat mujhe hamesa dukh deti. Maine kai bar ladki se pyar ki prastav rakha tha lekin maa ke sath prem prastav rakhne ke liye mujhe apna jaan hatheli me rakhna padta tha. Ek saal maine khud ko maa ke layak banane me gujardi av mera chhota bhai vi mujhe bahut pyar karta tha. Apna demand mujhe yese rakhta tha jese ki main uska janma ka jimmewar hu. Maa vi mere muchh aur mere andaj ko dekhkar kavi kavi muskurake keheti ‘tu apna jawan baap ka tarah dikhta hai’. Yeh baat sunkar main bahut khus hota tha. Raat me hamesa ek peg daru ek ciggarate aur maa ki tasvir mujhe jannat dilate the.
Main devdas ke tarah hone laga. Mujhe kavi himmat nai huwa maa ke sath pyar ka ishaar karneka. Woh meri liye asali aurat thi aur maa vi. Main kavi kisi se nai dara,nervous kya hoti hai maine samajhne ke kosis vi nai kiya. Apna kaam me maine inhi karan se safalta hasil vi kiya fir vi maa ke sath apna dil kholna mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha. Main apna dil behelane ke liye bas unki tasbir leke muth marta tha. Woh tasbir maine unse mag ke liya tha. Unhone bina kuch soche apne jawani ki tasbir mujhe diyatha fir vi mujhe avi ish umar ki maa achhi lag rahi thi. Woh tasbir mere bahut kaam aaraha tha. Maa jawani me bahut khubsurat thi aur av unki badan bhara huwa aur faila huwa tha. Sidi chadte huwe unki gand ki lachak, chaye dete huwe unki chuchi ki jhalak aur muskurate unki chehera mujhe jannat pahuchate.Maine maa ko patane ke liye kuch kosis vi kiya tha. Kai bar maine unko theatre me lejane ke prastav kiya lekin unhone inkar kiya. Maine jor lagane ke bad woh bhai ko vi sath le jane ki baat karti thi aur family drama unka choice hota tha. Main hamesa ghar me apna personality me reheta tha.Main itna badalne ke bad vi maa mujhe pehele jese bebhar karti thi jis se main aur dukhi hojata. Maa hamesa baap ki fikar leti thi aur mujhe vi kavi kavi rote keheti ‘beta tune ghar me har chij behattar kiya hai apna bap ko vi kuch kar’.Main jav vi maa ki muh se baap ke liye pyar sunta mujhe koi chikh jesa lagtatha. Fir vi main bardash karke bas sunta jata. Maa ki chehere ko dikh kar bas unka beta banke beth jata. Mera dil rota tha main itna sav kuch kar raha tha sirf maa ko pane ke liye badle me maa mere dil ko isi tarah ruladeti. Maine apna kaam me aur dhyan lagaya. Mere pash fir vi pura josh tha. Mujhe laga maa ke liye main sansar jit sakta tha. Maine apna business vi suru kardiya. Woh sharing tha aur bhagya ne vi mera dimag ke sath de raha tha. Maine us khusi me maa ko lal sari aur blouse kharid diya. Maa ne khusi se mera otho se bahut door mathe me chuma.Under garments vi kharidne ke liye soch aaya lekin practically aur technically muskil thanliya. Sach me jav maine unki gand ke naap socha tha to mujhe bahut ajib sa maja mila kafi badi gand hai unki. Dil ki baat jyada chhupa nai ja sakta hai. Mujhe yeh baat maa ko keheni hi tha lekin mujhe rasta nai mil raha tha. Ekbar maine baap ke sath daru pine ka irada banaya. Hum baap bete ko dono ko malum tha hum daru pite hai. Fir vi ek sath pehelibar tha.Aajkal main pehele se kafi badal chuka tha. Aur maa hi iski wajah thi. Main bap se respect se baat karne laga tha. Hum dono ne us raat khub piya. Bap ne toh had se jyada piliya. Mujhe nasa chad raha tha. Maine dil ki baat ughalna suru kiya. Main : ‘Bapu mujhe ek ladki se pyar huwa..lekin dil ki baat nai bol pa raha hu’ Bap muskuraye aur kehene lage Bapu: ‘Tujme kya kami hai? Kehe dal. Tu darne walo se nai hai’. Bap ko malum nai tha woh bete ko apni maa ke sath prem prastav rakhne ke liye bol rahe the.’ Main: ‘nahi bapu lekin woh ladki bahut alag hai aur mujh se vi badi hai, woh mujhe inkar karegi.’ Bapu : Batein to yesa kar raha hai jese bat us se pehele hi kiya ho’ Bap ne fir glass me daru dalte kehene lage. Baap: ‘mujhe yeh pehele bata meri honewali bahu kesi hai’ Mera sharavi bap dur tak sochne lage. Mujhe ajib laga baap ki patni ko hi main baap ki bahu ki kalpana kar raha tha. Mera aakh ke aage maa meri patni ke huliya me bap ki aage aasirwad lete hui tasbir aane lagi. Ciggrate mast khichke dhuwa udate maine aasani se kaha. Main: ‘woh bahut khubsurat bilkul maa jesi hai bapu. Uski swavav vi maa ki jesa hai’ Bapu ne daruki ek mast ghut nighal ke hase aur aakh ko chhoti karte kahe Bapu: ‘Tav to bahut muskil hai. Yesi aurat ko hasil karna bahut muskil hai’. Bapu sach ughal rehe the Bapu: ‘tu yesa mat soch teri maa ne main jesa sharavi se yesa hi sadi kiya hai.’ Maine maa ko hamari najdik aate huwe dekha. Main: ‘bapu chup raho maa aarahi hai’. Maa mans leke aarahi thi. Maa ko baap bête sath me daru pine se koi parisani nahi thi.Woh to keheti ghar ke andar bap bête milke thodi pio aur sojao. Yeha bahar pike beijati badnami nahi chahiye. Bap ne mere baat ka parbah nai kiya lekin galat nai bol rahethe. Darne wali bat to nai tha.Fir vi main nase me honese gadbad mehesus kar raha tha.Bapu :’yesi aurat koi vi baat majburan karti hai, teri maa ne mujh se sadi karne me bahut inkar kiya tha lekin uski bap ki intakal ki bad woh majbur hogai thi. Kahani lambi hai beta ‘Main andaj kar sakta tha. Maa hamari baat ansuni kar rahi thi aur jate jate mujhe kuch kahi sayad woh khud sone jarahi hai boli ya humko jaldi soneke liye boli. Mujhe bhi nind aaraha tha aur mujhe bapu ka baat bakwas lagne laga tha. Bapu:’Meghna bahut khubsurat thi aur avi vi hai.’ Mujhe av chakkar lag raha tha. Meghna naam maine to kavi nai bola yeh suna huwa naam tha. Av bap ka baat meri samajh ke bahar ja raha tha. Main: ‘achha naam hai bapu,apne kya unse sadi ka prastav rakha?.’ Bap hasne lage aur fir wohi baat dohorane lage anab sanab Bapu : ‘yesi aurat hume unki majburi me hi milte hai’ bapu ka batein ne mujhe av confuse karne laga. Ciggrate ko khichke maine mast dhuwa udaya aur kaha Main: ‘bapu apne kitne ka sath purpose kiya tha?’ Bapu khud ko muskil se samhal pahrehe the. Fir vi daru glass me var rahathe. Mujhe bottle me daru aadha full hai ya aadha khali hai kuch samajh me nai aaraha tha.
Bapu: ‘Mera pehela aur aakhiri pyar Meghna hi hai.’ Bapu fir sayad Meghna ke bare me hi bol rahethe. Yeh naam maine bahut bar sun chuka tha. Main: ‘Bapu apne maa ko ish bareme bataya tha ki aapke jindagi me Meghna vi kavi thi’ Bapu av pagal horahe the mujhe yesa laga.. Wo pagal ke tarah mast haske bole Bapu: ‘Main usko barbar bolta hu mere jiwan me Meghna hi mere liye sav hai’ Yeh bakwas baat horaha tha..maine fir daru pite bola Main: ‘Aap avi vi milte ho Meghna se?’ Yeh nam mujhe karibi lag raha tha. Bap ne mera hath pakad ke kaha Bapu : ‘Aaja tujhe avi milata hu’ Main bap ka pagal pan se hasne laga. Aur unke sath chalne laga. Hum do hi ek dusre ko samhal rahethe lekin hum khud ko samhal nai parahthe. Bap ne mujhe apne kamare leke jake yeh dekh meri Meghna ko bolke dikha diya. Meri maa pettikot aur blouse me sone jarahi thi. Main maa ki kandho me gira aur bolne laga’kidar hai Meghna kidar hai’ Mera bap has haske pagal jese baat kar raha tha.’ha ha av daru ne tu andha huwa hai.’ Main av hargaya Main:’Yeh to meri khubsurat maa hai…i love you maa,,.’Mujhe kuch nai yad aaya. Subah mera sar hang ho raha tha. Door me ring baja.’ha maa main jag gaya’.
Kal raat maine daru bahut pi liya tha. Yeh kesa majak tha,main apni maa ke naam ko vi nai pehechan raha tha. Sayad mera pau jamin me tha aur sar aasman me. Meghna meri maa hai. Kitni khubsurat naam hai yeh. Yeh naam ko maine Peheli bar wo subah mehesus kiya..M.e.ghna..kya naam hai maa ki. Kal raat bap ka kahani mujhe aur confuse karne laga aur mera sar dard hone laga. Main aaj kaam me nai jana chahata tha. Lekin mere liye apna business av apne liye dilchasp ban raha tha,Sayad isliye bhi main safal ho ja raha tha. Maine bathroom jate maa ko bola’maa aaj hard coffee bana dijiye mere liye.’ Nahane ke bad maine coffee piya.Thoda achha feel huwa. Nasta khake main apne duty me laga. Nase me hi sahi maine kal raat ko maa ko I love you kehediya tha. Kash maa ko iska asar padjata! Lekin huwa kuch bhi nahi. Mera samay kuch mahine yese hi gaya. Mera apna business ne vi kamal karne laga. Bapu wese hi the. Bap ka daru pina mujhe vi av achha lag raha tha.Main vi hapte me ek bar jarur dad ke sath daru pita tha. Bapu mere sharab pine wale dost bhi ho chuke the. Bap hamesa mujhe apne dil woh ladki se rakhne ki liye bolte the. Bapu: ‘dekh beta tujh me kuch kami nai, agar tu apni dil ki bat use kehe dega to vi woh inkar karegi vi tera kya jata hai. Fir vi tu kosis to karsakta’.Bapu ka bat mujhe sahi laga. Maine plan set karna suru kar diya. Plan mast tha. Aur samay vi khas tha. Valentine aane wala tha. Maine valentine day par maa ko purpose karne ka irada banaya. Mujhe malum hai mujh me aur vi himmat ki sakht jaruri thi lekin agar maa ghusse me aake vi kya kar payegi. Sakaratmak soch hum ko aage badata hai. Yeh vi hosakta hai maa meri purpose sahi manle aur meri baho me aajaye. Main av achha business man ban chuka tha bina kisi course se. Mujhe malum hai practical business kya hota hai. Majbur logo ka business me kya value hai. Maa ko av maine apna personal business man liya. Bapu ne vi sayad daru pite yehi kaha tha yese aurat ko majburi me paya ja sakta hai. Har business ka makhsad faida hai. Agar business me kuch lena hai to naram aur khula agar dena hai to kadak aur ghussa yeh formulae apnana chahiye. Business me risk,hardwork aur self confidence sabse aur samay to sabse badi source hai. Mujh me risk lene ka khubiya tha aur maa ko pane ke liye maine itna jimmedari(hard work) vi kiya tha. Bas ab samay chunna tha. Maine samay vi chunliya ‘valentine day’. Main usdin ke liye pura tayar me lag chuka tha.Maine naya flat kharid liya aur loan se car vi liya. Maine pura dilse apna kamare ko dulhan ka tarah sajane laga. Woh kamara mere liye khas tha kyu ki main maa ko purpose yehi karne wala tha. Maine woh kamare me remote control wala tape player rakha aur maa ki pasandit gana ‘pehela nasa’ ka lovely music track ka tape usme lagaya. Usko maine replay mode me rakhatha. Kamare ke upar auto fan tha jaha maine gulab ki ful ka patta bichhake rakhatha. Iska makhsad woh ful barish ki tarah maa ki upar girana tha. Apne wall me unki jawani ka photo bade size me charotaraf chipkake rakha kisi aashiq ki tarah. Maine aur tasbir ka vi concept soch liya.Darwaje ka samne ek yesa tasbira jaha Bich me Dropadi aur charotaraf pandav unko kaam moh se dikhte huwe. ..Aur savse badiya tasbir maine khud chun liya. Urvashi aur Arjun ka. Urvashi aur Arjun ka sambandh maa beta ka hai. Parantu Urvashi ne Arjun ko apne sath sambhog karne se inkar karneke wajah se shrapit kiya tha. Wo bhi napunsak hone ka. Yeh tasbir mere dharmik Urvasi jesi khubsurat maa ko sayad pravavit kar sakta tha. Kamare me romantic airfreshner ka vi istemal jaruri tha. Maine kisi ko yeh baat jankari nai diya usdin tak maa ko vi iska khavar nahi diya.Main Maa ko suprise dene wala tha. Main bahut utsahit tha lekin Kya pata mera gaal me maa ki chumi milne wala tha ya chata. Jo vi ho bapu ne kaha hai mujh me kuch kami nai hai. Main vi janta hu business me majbur logo ke sath ho to faida me ho. Sharavi pati,chota beta aur bada beta ka ishq wala pyar sayad unko majbur karsakte the. Maine sav intejam kiya aur Valentine day ka intejar karne laga. Main andar hi andar thrilling mehesus kar raha tha… Main khali samay me sidha naya flat me jata aur maa ko purpose ke liye rehearsal karta tha. Maine bahut sabd chuna…’maa main aap ke sath yehi din se yeha nayee jiwan bitana chahata hu…yeh utna achha nahi hoga. Ish purpose se kya maa samjhegi mera baat ko. Yeh kafi nai tha….’main aap se pyar karta hu..’ yeh to har beta maa se karta hai. Main sabd chun rahatha maa ke liye.. ‘maa aaj se main bapu ka har jimmewari pura karunga. Har jimmewari aap ka khyal …’ yeh vi utna khula sabd nai huwa. Mera dimag ne ish word ko thoda achha samjha ‘maa pyar paani ki tarah hai jaha vi behekjata hai.Main janta hu aap meri maa ho fir vi main aap se pyar karta hu. Main puri tarah bapu ka jimmedari lena chahata hu aur aap ko mujhe apnane ke liye anurodh karta hu .’ yeh clear tha aur perfect tha.Purpose yese hi hona chahiye. Av main Valentine day ka intejar kar raha tha. Dekhte dekhte who din vi aagaya.Bapu ko usdin subah hi maine unki jev vardiya aur apna dost ka sath company vi dediya aur maje lutne ke liye uksa diya. Bapu khus ho ke nikal gaye. Bhai ko maine apne dost ke ghar me veja uski padai ki bahane. Main woh raat maa ko akele apna sath banane ki kalpana kar raha tha. Maine fir maa ko bola ki unhe main aaj bahar le jaraha hu unko surprise dene ke liye. Maine kuch naya chij liya hai Yehatak bataya. Maine unhe lal rang ki nayee saree pehenne ki liye vi kaha. Unko maine saj dhaj ne ke liye kariv 2 ghante ka samay diya aur gadi ka horn sunte hi bahar aaneko kaha. Kariv 2 ghante ke bad maine car leke aaya aur horn mara. Ma jaldi jaldi aagai. Who dulhan ki tarah dikh rahithi. Itni khubsurat lag rahi thi ji bhar ke bahome lene ka dil huwa. Unko maine car ke aage bithaya. Unki khusbu mujhe madhosh kar raha tha. Maa ko maine car vi apna bataya to maa chauk padi. Unhone mere badi tarif kari lekin main bas keheta raha bas aapko khus karna chah raha hu. Maine maa ko aage ki sise se dekhte bola Main: Maa aap khubsurat lag rahi ho. Maa ne jawaf me bas muskuradi. Maine fir kaha Main :’maa aaj valentine day he’ Maa ne meri taraf dekh ke kahaMaa : toh kya huwa? Maine najar ghumate kaha Main: aaj pyar ka ijhar karne ka din hai.Maa haste boli Maa: toh kya huwa beta? tu kisiko pyar karta hai kya?. Maine kaha Main: ha jaan se vi jyada. Maa ne ajib se mujhe dekha aur kaha Maa: kya tu us se sadi vi karna chahate hai beta?’ Main soch me pada ..kya main maa ke sath sadi vi karna chahata hu….!!.
Main: ‘ha jarur maa, agar uski marji hai toh ‘. Maa ne lambi sans lete kaha muskurate kaha.Maa:’yeh to khusi ki baat hai,woh ladki kismet wali hai. usko kavi bataya hai?’ Main: ‘nahi maa aaj ka din ka intejar tha’. Maa ne mujhe dikhte kaha Maa : tu usko pasand karta hai woh ladki ko andaja hai ya nahi?’
Maine ek bar maa ko dikh ke lambi sans lete kaha Main: ‘lagta to nahi’
Maa phir puchhne lagi
Maa: ‘kav jayega usko batane ke liye, bhai ko tune hi bahar veja hai. Tera bapu ka koi varosa nai hai. Tuj ko jaldi lautna padega ghar’
Main bas muskura raha lekin andar andar main thoda dar raha tha.
Main: aap fikar mat karo maa,main aap ko akele nai hone dunga.’
Maine maa ko apna flat me pahuchaya. Maa ajib mehesus kar rahi thi aur maine apna kamare ke tala kholdiya. Mera dil jod jod se dhadak raha tha. Maine andar jatehi tape play kar diya. Apni tasbir ko charotaraf dikh ke maa aage badi. Maa kamare ke bich me jatehi maine fan on kar diya aur maa ki upar phoolon ka barish hogaya. Surume maa taras gayee lekin bad me khusi se apna chehera upar karke dono hath failake pholon ka barish ki maja lene lagi. Woh bahut khubsurat dikh rahi thi. Kamara romantic ho chuka tha aur yeh mere liye achha mauka tha. Maine maa ke liye leke aaya huwa ek khas tohfa sone ki anguthi bahar jeb me rakha. Agar baat banee to main anghuthi me unki ungli khud ghusa dunga. Pholo ka barish band hotehi maa ne mera taraf dekh ke sharam aur masti me kaha
Maa:’yeh kya beta?’
Main himmat se aage bada. Aur unki hath pakad ke himmat se kaha
Main: ‘maa pyar pani ka tarah hota hai jaha vi behe jata hai. Aap meri maa ho fir vi Mujhe aap se pyar huwa hai maa. Bapu ka pura jimmedari samhalna chahata hu. Aapko mujhe apnane ki anurodh karta hu maa.’
Maine seriously unse najar milate hath pakad ke himmat se kaha. Yeh baat bahut badi business deal se vi jyada tha mere liye. Mere bato se maa chauk padi. Unka chehera lal hogaya.
Maa chila ke boli
Maa:’yeh kya behuda majak kar raha hai apni maa se tu? pagla to nai gaya kya?’.
Av mujhe sunna kya tha. Dil ka do tukda hogaya. Fir vi Maine aur jod dali
Main : ‘main aap ko chahata hu aur yeh mera kosis hai maa’.
Ishbar maa kuch shant hui fir vi mere liye yeh faida ke baat to nahi tha. Kyu ki Maa mujhe chhote bache ki tarah dekh ke hasi aur laad pyar se mere gaal sehelate kahi
Maa: ‘beta main vi tujhe pyar karti hu. Hum maa bete hai. Hum ek dusre ko khub chahate hai kyu ki humara sambandh hi yesa hai. Yeh ishq vishq wali pyar nai hai’.
Maa ki bato se mujhe bahut ghussa aaya. Ghar ke liye itna savkuch jimmedari nivane par vi unhone mujhe bas bacha samajh rakha tha. Aaj toh baat ko war par karna hi tha nai to baki din aur muskil ho sakti thi kyu ki main bas maa ki bête me apna jaga lena nai chahata tha.Woh mujhe samjha rahi thi. Mujhe raha nai gaya. Najane mujhe kya huwa!Maine achanak unki sar pakad ke unki muh me itna jaldi aur jod se kiss kardiya.maa birodh kar hi nai payee. Maine bahut lamba kiss kardiya. Yeh jabardast kiss tha. Unhone apna lips alag hotehi mujhe ghusse se dekha. Unki sanse tej chalrahi thi. Sayad mera vi kuch der sans ruka tha main vi jaldi jaldi oxygen le raha tha.
Fir kya hona tha, Maa ne jod tod se mere gaal me yesa tamacha mara iski gunj mere kano tak pahucha.’harami papi,tu yeh karne se pehele kyu nahi mara…Kitna gandha nikla tu, car me meri hi baat kar raha tha…tu nalayak nikla..sadi karega apni maa se…ghin aati hai mujhe khud par maine tu jesa beta ko janm diya..agar fir tune apna sakal mujhe dekhaya toh hum dono me kisi ek ko marna hoga.’ tamacha ki gunj se mera kan fata jesa hogaya. Aur maa mujhe bahut galiya dete jarahi thi. Yeh mere liye bilkul kharab sapna jesa tha.Maine maa ko fir sustse bola ‘bas vi karo maa! Main koi jod nai laga raha hu.’
Meri aawaj suntehi maa ne ek baar mujhe dekha. Unka chehera ghusse se laal huwa tha aur unke aakhe vi ghusse se bada huwe the aur aasu vi dikhne laga tha. Unke saans tej chal raha tha. Jivan me peheli bar mujhe maa se itna dar laga hoga lekin usi wakt mujhe peheli bar yeh vi ehesas huwa maa ghusse me aur vi kahi jyada sundar dikhti hai bahut sundar.Lekin main soch vi nahi sakta tha maa kya karne wali thi. Maa ne jor se mere chehere ke upar thuk di aur apne aakho ki aasu pucchte boli “chhi apni maa ko gandhi najar se dikhne wala paapi kahika, jod dalne ka khayal vi kese aaya tujhe”. Maa ki galiya aur thuknese me andar se khali hogaya tha phir vi maine apne mardangi sabit kardiya. “maa main aap ko chahata hu isme kya Gandhi baat aur kaha ki paap” Maine maa ki thuk ko puchhe bina sust se unka jawaf diya. Maa ne fir meri taraf dikh ke kaha “aaj ke bad teri parchhai vi us ghar me nahi dekhana..Tu pagla gaya hai.” Maa jaldise aasu puchhte nikalne lagi. Sindi se unki daudneka aawaj aaya.
Maine maa ki thuk apne chehere ke charotaraf failaya aur lambi sans leliya. Mera dil bhari vi horaha tha fir vi main halka mehesus kar rahatha. Av dil me kuch nahi tha. Maine apne kosis kar dikhaya. Maine fir sabit kiya main unmose nahi hu jo dil ki baat se ghut se marte hai.Yeh to durvagya ki baat thi maa ne na bhai ki sochi na bapu ki sochi. Na to unhone mere mohobbat ko samja. Baat bahut aasan tha. Agar maa manjati toh hum sath me rehesakte the thik usi tarah. Lekin jab mihenat karnewalo ki jaga upar hoti toh mere jaga vi ghar me ucha honahi tha. Jarur maa ki bistar par sone ka avsar av bapu ko nahi balki mujhe milna chahiye tha.Meri najar ke samne avi vi maa ki ghusse wali chehera ghum raha tha.Main haar manne wala nahi tha. Chahe duniya bhar ki tagat mujhe rokna chahe vi mujhe rok nahi sakte the.

Maine ek bottle McDowell khola aur pine laga.Whisky mujhe khus kardeti hai aur ciggerete mere andar utsah deti hai. Jo jaldhi har manega wo kavi safal nahi hota hai. Maa ko hasil karna aasan nahi tha fir vi mujhe asambhab nahi lag raha tha.
Asambhab to mere liye maa begar ka mera jiwan jina lag raha tha. Main maa ke liye kuch vi karsakta tha. Aaj ka valentine mera ajib hogaya tha. Karib 2/4 saal se maine valentine apne company ke sath manaya tha. Bahut ladki ke sath ek sath me romance vi kiya tha. Lekin yeh valentine khas raha. Isko main kavi vul nahi sakta. Maa ke sath love purpose ke baad unka tamacha unka galiya aur unki thuk yeh valentine ka love-gift hogaya mere liye. Love purpose me yesa jhatka sayad duniya me dusra kisiko nalage ho.

Bapu sahi the yesa aurat majburan hi milti hai. Maa avi vi bête ke masuka hone ke liye khud ko itna majburan nahi parahi thi.

Halad kisko kya banadeti hai. Business me vi wohi safal hai jo halad ko paryog kar sakta hai. Main janta hu main ghar ka mid piller hu. Maine ghar ki har jimmedari uthayee hai. Bhai ki padai bapu ka kharcha yeha tak maa ki kapade ka kharcha vi main utha leta tha. Aajkal ghar me sab mujh me depend the. Maine kuch galti nahi kiya hai. God ne vi dekha hai. Maine maa ko chaha purpose kiya isme koi galati nahi hai. Maa ne iske badale me mere sath jo kiya sayad wo galat ho sakta hai. Maa ko iska ehesas sayad jald hi hoga. Main yehi sochte husky piye jaraha tha. Pata nahi kyu maine apne gaal me laga huwa maa ki thuk ko saaf nai kiya aakhirkar thuk wohi suk gaya.
Meri maa ki thappad thuk aur galiya mujhe baar baar yaad aarahi thi. Aur yeh sabit kar rahe the,main maa ki kavil avi vi nahi hu. Meri maa koi normal aurat nahi hai. Jav vi wo mere sath hoti toh main khud ko bahut chhota mehesus karta hu .Maine itni samaya tak apna personality ko bahut khas develop kiyatha. Khud ko maa ki layak banane ke liye maine Physically aur mentally dono tarike apnaya. Jav main business field me hota hu to koi mujhe chhota soch nahi sakte. Mera apne staff log to mujh se sar uthakar batein vi nahi kar sakte hai. Agar main office me dakhil hota hu to staff sab khade hote hai. Mujh se dus saal bada aadmi vi mujhe bade ke darja dete hai. Maine dusre kisike aage chhota mehesus karna chhod diya tha lekin ek maa hi thi jo mujhe ehesas dila deti ki main chhota hi hu. Mujhe thoda humiliate huwa lekin haqiqat to yehi hai jaldi jitne wala game aur jaldi chadne wala nasa se vi bekar chij duniya me jaldi milne wala ishq hoti hai.

Jiwan me safal hona hai to positive soch ek rasta hai. Main avi vi yehi biswas me tha ek din jarur maa meri apni hogi.
Kal subah jagtehi naha dhoya aur thoda daru piya. Man fir fresh tha. Main apna kaam me lagne laga. Maine kavi vi kaam me apna personal life ka negative asar hona nahi diya. Av to main kaam me jyada ish karan vi focus ho raha tha ki taki main samaj me achha ijjat pasaku. Maine social work me vi apna hath badaya. Agar business me achha access lena hai to yeh vi jaruri hai. Jav ijjat milti hai to har kaam aasan hota hai. Main janta hu jo aadmi ko dusro ko khus karna malum ho wo aadmi jarur safal hota hai. Achha ho raha tha. Main av pese ke sath me naam vi kama raha tha. Sab kuch achha chal raha tha.
Main raat din apna kaam me hi lag raha tha. Kitne jaldi din kat gaya malum vi nahi huwa. Lekin wo din main kaha vul sakta hu. Sayad karib 2 mahine ke bad tha. Main apne company se bich me chhutti lekar apna khud ka business dekhne jaraha tha. Main car me tha. Wo seher ka galli tha. Mera car ke aage ek aurat chal rahi thi. Uski julfe piche ish tarah badhi huwi thi ki uski sundar gardan vi dikh rahe the. Wo nile saree me thi. Usne hill sandle peheni thi jiski wajah se uski gand thoda upar tak utha huwa tha. Isi karan se Uska chalne se gand ki lachakta itni khubsurat dikh raha tha ki main dikhtehi rehe gaya. Lekin yese chalne wali aurat maine pehele vi dikha hai. Piche se kya sexy dikh rahi thi. Main apni khubsurat maa ko kese nahi pehechan ta tha. Wo sayad market se kuch saman leke jarahi thi. Maine car ki speed bahut kam kiya. Mujhe piche se unko dekhna vi bahut achha lag raha tha. Do mahine ke bad dikh raha tha. Dil bol raha tha unke piche hi chala jaau. Mujhe unki chehera dikhna tha. Maine thoda car ko aage kiya taki maa vi mujhe anjane me dekhe.
Jav thoda khula jaga mila to maine car aage roka aur kuch kharidne ke bahane me dokan me jaldi gaya. Mujhe malum hai maa mujhe dikh sakti hai lekin dar vi lagraha tha ki kahi wo ulta behave kare. mujhe gali de aur kya kya. Positive soch positive hi chij hasil karega. Maine dokan se liya to kuch nahi lekin mera makhsad to puri hohi gaya. Hum dono ka ek dusre se najar mila. Maine anjane ke bahanase unhe dikhne ka natak kiya lekin kuch bolne ke liye sabd nahi mila. Unhone vi mujhe dikha. Pata nahi kyu mujhe unko gale lagane ka dil huwa lekin maa ne apna cehera dusri taraf kardiya aur chalne lagi. Yeh to hona hi tha. Maa koi aasan aurat nahi hai. Lekin unhone kuch ghussa vi nahi dikhaya jesa unhone kaha tha.Bete ke liye unka dil me pyar bahut tha lekin ab unko vi pata tha main unka bete se vi jyada unka suhag banne ke dil rakhta hu.Hum jo vi baat had se jyada ghusse me bolte hai wo sach nai hoti hai. Kyu ki jindagi rukhi sukhi hai.
Wo pehele se vi jyada khubsurat dikh rahi thi. Unhone mujhe dikha ,ek bar dekha kuch vi nahi kaha nahi kuch ghussa dikhaya. Mere liye yeh achha sanket tha. Wo raat maine daru ciggerate aur unki photo ka sath liya. Maine kamare me dhuwa bhara. Mujhe yesa laga maa vi ab reality janchuki hai.Mujhe aaj bilkul nind nahi tha. Maa se bichhadne ka bad main isi kamare me tha. Aaj maa ki chehera dekh ke dil me bahut santosh mila. Maine wo raat ek hi gana repeat me suna”jo tenu vekheya sanse gayi tham sari sari raat soye nahi hum” Phir ohi baat taja hogaye. Daru pite hi mere dimag me aur positive bate aur plan aane laga aur yesa laga maa ko main jald hi hasil kar lunga.
Jaldi kuch vi nahi hoti hai. Har chij ke liye ek plan chahiye uske liye ek proper design aur usko pane ke liye antarman se khwahis vi puri tarah ke ichhya sakti ke sath..

Business me rehene ke liye umar 16 se upar,forward logo ko vi handle kar sakne ki kabiliyat,peso ka sahi parbah ,partisparda ka sath deal,hamesa faide ka bikash aur lagat ka katauti ka soch aur insab se bada chij hoti hai apne upar biswas. Agar business chalane ke sidaant aur tarike ekbar janliya toh dusri business me vi hum wo lagu kar sakte hai.

Vipin ne mujhe puchh hi liya mere Valentine ke day kesa raha tha. Mere pas koi sidhi jawaf nahi tha dil tut gaya mere bache bas itna hi bol gaya. Vipin ne mujhe khus karte kaha “Jarur aapne koi pagal ladki se purpose kiya hoga ” Business me status ko dhyan dena chahiye baat ko vi bahut sabdhani se karna chahiye. Maine Vipin ko sidha dekha wo kuch hadbadaya sayad usne galti mehesus kiya hoga. Maine usko cool hote huwe haste kaha “Sayad wo ladki smart vi ho sakti hai” Vipin ne lambe saans lete kaha “Bilkul sir, aapki pasand hamesa alag aur anokhi hoti hai,bhabi ji vi bahut khubsurat aur smart jarur hongi” . Vipin meri maa ko bhabi bol raha tha dil me bahut shanti mila.Usne dil khus kardiya lekin Jyada baat aadmi ko sasta banadeta hai. Maine kaha“dekhenge phir sauda pasand nayee aayee ho”

Vipin ne mujhe paper dikhate kaha “aap ka sauda kisko pasand naho,sir yeh nayee company ne hume fax veja hai. Usko aap ka offer pasand aaya hai lekin wo aap se baat karna chahate hai”.

Vipin mera dost tarah hi tha. Hum ne sath me job kiyethe. Ajib ki baat thi aaj wo mera company me kaam kar raha hai. Wo hamesa mujhe respect karta tha. Ladka bahut sidha vi hai. Main usko biswas karsakta tha. Main jyada se jyada kaam usi se lipat leta tha. Sav se badi mujhe uska pasand aane chij hai uski sensivity. har baat ko anjam dene ke liye wo mera khas aadmi hi tha.

Nayee sauda nayee saman nayee utpadan phir nayee karobar yeh to chalta hi reheta hai.

Kya maa ki gali aur thuk se main maa se dur huwa tha ab aur raste me najar milne se kya maa ke dil me mere jaga bana hoga.Yesa hohi nahi sakta. Isne to dusra roop le chuka tha. Mujhe maa se bahut ghussa aaya vi tha. In do mahino tak unka thapad ki gunj aur galiya ne meri andar unke upar bahut ghussa dilaya tha. Iski badala main jarur lunga. Mujh me wo baat hai.Mujh me wo ichhya sakti hai.
Yeha wo log piche hai jo baat ko makhsad dene se darte hai. Main unme se nahi hu. Main janta hu maa ne vala hi mujhe ghusse me jitna vi gali diya ho aakhir tha to main unka hi aulad.
Maine aur ek glass piliya. Av main pura himmat se bhara huwa tha. Mujhe apne gujre huwe do mahino ke liye regret feel kiya. Jo gaya wo to gaya av vi kuch to kharav huwa to nahi hai. Maine aakhirkar ghar me phone karne ka nischaya kiya.
maine phone lagaya. Phone me aawaj aaya. Yeh aawaj maa ka to nahi tha. Lekin mera pyara chhota bhai ka tha. Wo mere aawaj sunte hi khus hogaya. Mujhe vi bahut khus huwa. Main pareshan hogaya jab bhai ne bataya ki yeh do mahino me bapu ka health bahut kharab hota jaraha hai. Main janta hu daily daru pine se bapu kamjor horahe the aur ab daru napine se vi unka sarir kamjori se kapne laga. Mujhe aur dukh hogaya bhai ko school se nikalna pada. Bhai mujhe ghar jaldi aane ko bol rahatha wo bhi mujhe ghar ki khayal rakhne ko kaha rahatha.Wo chhota tha fir vi batein samajhdar kar raha tha. Usne mujhe achanak ghar chhodne ka karan puchha. Maine bas bad me bataunga bola. Maine maa ki bareme puchha to usne chilana suru kiya “maa aap ko bhaiya bula rahe hai” Sayad maa avi avi uske najdik aayeethi wo khusi se chilla raha tha”dekhiye bhaiya ka call aaya aap to bol rahi thi..” bich me phone band huwa.
Main peso ka tagat janta tha lekin maa ko iska asar nai huwa. Kai bar maine muth marte kalpana kiya tha– Maa peso ke majburi se vi mere pash aayegi aur jarur main unse badale me unke sath sex kar sakta hu. Main apni bebas maa ko chodne ke kalpana me muth marta tha aur yehi sochta tha bhai ki padai ki kharch aur bapu ke kharch ke liye vi wo jarur kuch us mauke me bolti thi aur main unko iske badale me aur jod jod se pel pel ke chod sakta tha, unki thapad khaya huwa mera dil vi unhe itni beheremi se chodta jis tarah kisi ne avitak aurat na chodi ho. Mera pura badan kapta tha jav main unki chut me pani chodne ka kalpana karta tha. Unki niche saree vi kharab hojata aur main unko nayee deta lekin meri maa koi randi nahi thi jo ish tarah peso ki purti kare, wo wakehi sakht aam hindustani aurat ki tarah hi thi. To phir yeha maa ki chut aur saree me girne wala mera kalpana ka pani khud mera apna kapda aur hath bas gandha karte the. Kalpana to kalpana hi hai.Kash yesa haqiqat hota. Lekin ghar me peso ki sakht jarurat hai yeh to main jan chuka tha.

Bhai ka school band aur bapu ka tabiyat yeh baat iska proof tha. Phir maine call lagaya lekin koi jawaf nai mila. Jav dil puri tarah se kisiko chahata hai to uski duri bardash karna bahut muskil hota hai. Duniya me dil ko khus karna hai to dimag ki istemal aur himmat karne ki khubi hona chahiye. Lekin mujhe nase kuch jyada hi chad raha tha. Main yuhi sogaya kal subah kisi makhsad ke sath jagne ke liye.

Subah maine apna daily kaam kiya aur ek peg lagake achanak apne purane ghar ke taraf chala.Main kamare ke andar tak chala gaya. Ghar me sannata tha.Sayad savi soye ho.Mera dhadkan kuch tej hogaya. Bapu ka kamara khula tha. Main bapu ke kamare ka taraf chalne laga. Main dikhta hi rehegaya. Maa ka pichwadi mere taraf tha.Sayad wo avi nahake aayee thi. Unki baal bhiga huwa tha. Bapu bistar par the.Maa avi blouse aur pettikot me thi aur av wo panty pehen rahi thi. Yakin nahi horaha tha main unko panty pehente huwe dikh raha tha. yeh timing jabardast raha. Maa aksar bathroom me hi kapde badalti thi lekin yeh aaj uparwala ka hi marji hoga.Unhone jhuk ke panty me do pair andar dala aur khade hote panty ko upar khichliya. Unki pettikot mujhe duniya ki savse khubsurat chij dekhne se rukawat kar raha tha phir vi jav unhone panty ko apni gand tak pahuchaya to unki moti janghe dikhne ko mila. Bahut ladki ko chod chuka mera lund vi buri tarah se khada hogaya. Pant tight honese mujhe woha dard vi hogaya. main maa ke taraf sex ke liye vi kitna attract hu mujhe khud manna pada. Sayad bapu woha nahote toh main khud ko rok nai pata.

Main kya kya soch rahatha. Achanak maa ne mujhe dekh liya. Aur jaldi apne aap ko saree se lapet liya. Main maa ki taraf chala. Maa ghabrakar mujhe dekh rahi thi. Bapu bimar aadmi ke tarah badbada rahethe. Maine maa ko dhog liya. Mujhe maa ki feet vi bahut khubsurat lagte hai dhogte huwe meri najar unki sundar feet par padi,unki paer aur ungliya nakhoon har chij khubsurat thi. Main jav vi dur kahi lambi safar se aata toh maa ko dhogta tha. Do mahine bad milne par mujhe khud dhogneka dil huwa. Sayad maa ish bar dari hui thi. Wo sayad kuch alag soch rahi thi. Lambi sanse chodkar wo kamare se nikal gayee. Maa jatehi main bapu ka pash betha.

Maine maa ke sath face to face hone me apna sahas puri tarah se lagaya tha. Mujhe kuch ajib lag raha tha aur dar kuch paar ho chuka tha. Maine maa ne ghusse me kaha huwa sab bat tod diya unke samne aake. Bapu kamjor hogaye the bechara. Mujhko dikhtehi bapu ka aakh chamakne laga. Unhone mere bareme puchha. Maine kuch jawaf diye bina hi unko pucha kya huwa tha aakhir unko. Bapu ne pareshan hote huwe kaha.
Bapu: hum tujh par hi nirvar the bete. Aur main, tu to janta hi hai ek glass chadaye bina bol vi nai sakta hu aur sarir vi kanpta hai. Ghar ki halat bahut kharav hai beta.
Bapu bar bar khaasi le rehethe. Ha main janta hu. Bapu daru ke liye jaan lagate the. Wo ghar me chori vi karte the.
Bapu: Aakhir tu kaha gaya tha beta? Usdin tu bahut khus tha. Phir dikha nai diya.
Bapu ko avitak malum nahi huwa tha usdin main unki patni ko love purpose karne ke liye utsahit tha aur unke biwi ko apna patni banane ka maine kosis vi kiya tha. Maa kaise batati wo baat wo vi yesa sharavi bapu ko.
Phir bapu khas khaske bolne lage
Bapu: mujhe to teri maa aur bhai ki fikar ho raha tha. Beta main mar vi jaau aaj mujhe thoda daru pilade tere ghar wapas ke khusi me.
Bapu badbada rahe the. Sharavi ko bas bahana chahiye. Kuch dertak main bapu ka sar me hath se malish karte huwe sochne laga. Maa ko meri sakht jarurat thi phir vi unhone mujhe bulaya nahi. Aaj maa ko maun dekh ke mujhe vi samajh me aarahatha unko vi dil se sach me mera jarurat ki mehesusi ho chuki thi bas unki ghamand unko yeh kehense rok raha tha. Insan ko jab sabkuch milti tab insaniyat aur badi badi chij ki padti hai nai toh badi chij sochne ke liye time hi kiski paas reheta hai.
Maa chaye leke aayee. Maa ne bin kuch bole chaye table me rakhdi aur kuch der wohi khadi hogai. Wo apni dono hath ki ungli sadka rahi thi. yeh unki purani aadat thi. Jav kavi vi unko uneasy feel hota wo yese hi react karti.Wo chaye mere liye hi tha. Hum maa bete ke bich me pehele jese mahol na raha. Paristhiti bilkul asahaj tha. Maa kuch bol nai parahi thi aur main kya bolta tha. Mujhe to wohi din ki baat yaad aaraha tha. Mere samne khadi aurat bas maa nahi thi. Wo aurat wohi thi jisko maine Valentine par love ka purpose kiya tha. Wo aurat wohi thi jis ne mera purposal ka jawaf mera gaal me diya tha. Maine sach me himmat dikha liya tha. Unki thuk aur gali galoch khane ke bad aur unki dhamki-agar phir teri parchai dekhayega to vi jaan dungi-bad vi main ghar me aayatha. Main apni sar jhukakar bapu ke taraf dekhta raha.
Bapu: Meghna! bete ko chai de. dekhna beta jav se tu ghar se bahar hai teri maa ki halat to bahut buri hogai. kaha kaha khojati.
Bapu phir khasi lene lage.
Bapu: Beta ghar me bas main hi bimar nahi hu. Tera chhotu vi…
Bapu phir khasi lene lage.
Bapu: Apni maa se puch kya kya huwa. Aur tera kya huwa us ladki ke sath?
Maa chaye leke mere samne aayee aur bin kuch bole chaye mere aage kardi. Sayad jhagde huwe lover yese hote hai. Maine vi kuch bole bina hi chaye leliya. Mera phone baj gaya.
Wo kaam ke bareme hi tha. Humne nayee company se kiye huwe sauda pura huwa tha. Saude karib 6 mahine ka tha. Wo company hamare liye maintanance aur vehicle ke saman ki purti ke liye raji huwa tha. Humne pehele uske sath kariv 5 lakh ki saman ki deal kiya the.
Main phone me batein kar raha tha.
Kuch der bad mera bhai vi yehi kamare me maa maa bolte aagaya. Wo mujhe dekh ke khus hote huwe daud ke mere pash aage gale lag gaya. Hum bhai bhai ki milan gajab ka hogaya.
Uska sarir bahut garam tha. Maine use gale lagake kya huwa puchha. Wo rone laga bichara avi vi chhota bacha hi tha. Wo phir bola.
Bhai: Mujhe bukhar hai bhaiya.Tin din huwa. Dawa vi leliya sahi nahi ho raha hai. Maine bhai ko gaal chumte Usko gale me lagaya. Maine maa ki taraf dekha unki aakh vi aasu se bhari huwi thi. Mujhse najar milte hi unhone ek hath se aasu puchh liya aur kamare se nikal gayee.
Main samajh chuka tha ek sath do bimar hote hai to ghar me kitni parisani hoti hai. Maine Bipin ko call lagaya.
Main: Bipin suno main aaj office me aanahi paunga. Wo sunday wali party ke sath taye huwi meeting ko khabar kardo aur baki choti moti chij apni tarikese hi lipatna.
Bipin: Aap fikar mat kariye. Sab as it is hoga.
Maine bhai aur bapu ko kapade pehenne ko bola. Main hospital janewala tha. Main chaye piye begar hi kamare se nikla aur passage me bitha raha. Kuch der bad bapu ke room me gaya.
bapu: Mujhe kuch nahi hoga ab tu hai na phir sab thik hoga.
Main: Ha sabkuch thik hoga.
Maine unko niche tak le aaya. Maa aur bhai sath me niche aarahe the. Maa kali saree me thi. Jav vi main maa ko kali saree me dikhta hu bilkul unka diwana ho jata hu. Kitni haseen aur khubsurat dikhrahi thi. Mere dhadkan yese hi tej ho raha tha.
Bapu aage seat me aaye. maine car ki aiyena ko maa ki chehere ke taraf sidha kiya. Sayad maa ko vi malum huwa hoga main bar bar unko hi dikh raha tha. Jav vi najar milti to maa daya aur baya dikhti thi.
main andar se bahut khus tha. Main itna to janta tha ki maa ko meri jarurat ki ehesas ho chuki thi. Ajib baat hai hum avitak ek sabd nai bol rahe the. Main puri tarah se unke pyar me dub chuka tha aur yehi soch raha tha. Pichhe seat me bithne wali aurat meri patni vi hosakti hai.
Goverment hospital me jyada vid vad hota hai,staff utna caring vi nai hote hai. Sarsafai ke liye hospital to namuna hona chahiye lekin goverment hospital ish baat me vi public ko niras kardeta hai,khas kar ke toilet bathroom utna saf nai hote jitna hona chahiye…. Isliye vi main private hospital ka service pasand karta hu. Jav hum kisi ek chhetra me safal ho jaye to hum ko jyada log pehechante hai,mujhe dikh ke kisi aadmi ne greeting kiya lekin main use pehechan nai paraha tha. Yeh sav mera social service ka natija tha. Main bapu ko lekar aage chala. Maa bhai ke sath pichhe pichhe aarahi thi.
Mujhe hospital ki scent bilkul pasand nai hai. Andar jate hi dawa ka smell mujhe parisan karne laga mujhe apna hanky se naak band karna pada. Main bapu ko lekar agla section ke taraf chala aur maa bhai ko lekar bacho wali ward me chali. Mera personality bakayeda ho chuka tha. Sav mujhe koi bade aadmi ka tarah dekh rahe the. Koi vi mere sath puri tamij se pesh aarahethe. Main apna bapu ko lekar general ward ke taraf chala.
Mujhe thoda sar dard hone laga. Kuch der ke bad hamara no. aaya. Main bapu ke sath andar gaya. DJulor ke sar me bilkul baal nai the. DJulor utna smart nai the jitna main samajhta tha. DJulor ne bapu ko normal cheak up karne ke bad wohi sawal puchha jo aam dJulor puchhte hai.”kya aap daru ciggrate pite hai?” maine sav bataya. DJulor ne kuch dava likhte kaha bapu ko daru pina kam karna padega. Daru unko kamjor kar raha hai. Baat to sach tha bapu ka hath kanp rehethe. DJulor ne kam se kam dawa lene tak daru ko warjit karne ko kaha.
Main wo ward se medical counter me chala,aur dava leliya. Hamara kaam khattam huwa. Main bapu ko lekar car ke taraf chala aur maa ke intejar karne laga. Kuch der me maa hospital se nikli. Unhone ek hath se bhai ka hath pakad raha thi aur dusra hath se apni janghe ki bich ki saree pakad ke thoda upar khich rahi thi,sayad saree kuch jyada hi lambi thi aur niche unki kadam me badha dal rai thi. Maa ki ish tarah ka chalte dikh ke mujhe bahut achha lag raha tha. Kali saree me wo yese hi khub dih rahi thi upsar se ek hath jangh ke bich ke saree pakda huwa aur dusra hath bhai ko pakdta aage badti hui wo kamal ki mohatarma lag rahi thi. Main unse najar hata nai parahatha. Kali rang ke saree me lipti hui unki gori badan mujhe unke aur buri tarah se aakarsit kar rehe the. Maa car me aagai. Hum pehele jese hi car me bithe. Bapu ko sayad nind lag raha tha wo jhul rehe the.
Maine fir maa ko aaine ke sahare dikhna kayam rakha. Av to maa ko vi lag chuka tha main ghar me usi roop se lauta hu jis roop se maine unke sath pyar ka ishaar kiya tha. Maa vi kavi kavi mujhe dikhti aur jaldi se najar ghumaleti. Unki aage kuch bale gir rahethe wo unko suljha rahi thi. Aaj wo aur vi khubsurat dikh rahi thi. Jav kuch hi pal ke liye hamari aakh miljati meri dhadkan bahut tej hojata. Iska wajah sirf dar nahi tha balki ek ajib sa mehesusi tha,yesi mehesusi jese ki khuda ne maa ke rup me hi mere masuka,meri humsafar bheje ho aur wo mujhe najar churake dekh rahi ho.
Bhai achanak bola”bhaiya wo dekhiye jalebi.” usko jalebi bahut pasand hai wo kavi vi bahar aata hai to jalebi to usko khana hi padta tha. Mujhe hasi laga itna der ke bad uski muh jelebi ki liye khul raha tha. Main kese usko naraj kar sakta tha. Maine car ko roka aur khud jelebi lene ke liye nikla wo vi mere piche kud ke aaya. Bhai bimar hai bolke sochna muskil ho raha tha. Wo mere piche piche aake bola.”bhaiya mujhe Kingkong dikha dijiye na please”. Maine cd leke uski man khus kardiya. Wo mere hath pakad ke khusi se has raha tha.
Hum fir car ke taraf chale. Bhai ne jalebi kholke maa ko jalebi khane ko kaha lekin maa ne inkar kiya. Bhai ki khusi dekhkar maa ko vi ajib laga hoga. Unhone uski health ko dikhte huwe use jyada jelebi khane se mana kiya. Hum ghar pahuch gaye, mujhe garmi mehesus ho raha tha. Main bapu ko kamare me le chala. Bhai mere sath me aake bithne laga. Main samajh raha tha, wo kingkong ke chakkar me tha. Bartan ki aawaj se pata chal raha tha maa rasoi me hai. Maharani avitak hum se batein nai kar rahi thi. Hum ko yeh janna muskil ho raha tha ki maharani ki dil me kya chal raha hai kash koi yesi chij hoti jis se hum uska man jan sakte.

Main bhai ke liye dvd lagane laga. Rasoi se maa bhai ko bula rahi thi. Bhai jaldi hi laut aaya aur puchha” bhaiya chaye piyenge? “mera sar bhi well feel nai kar raha tha fir Maine usko pine ke liye bola. Phir kuch der me bhai rasoi se daud ke aakar mujhe puchhne laga”dudh wala chai ya lemon wala?”.
Ha maa ki to yeh aadat hi hai jav vi wo bapu se ghusse ki nakhare karti toh mujhe yeh dono ke bich narad ka kaam karna padta tha. Maa mere liye chaye puch rahi thi aur bhai unka muh ban raha tha.”lemon wali” bhai phir rasoi me gaya. Aaj me asali chhutti me tha. Na koi tension,na koi calls. Bhai ke sath bachowali film dekh raha tha. Aur meri maa meri priya bahut din bad meri aaspash thi.Film mujhe kuch samajh me nai aarahatha lekin bhai yese dikh raha tha jese wo sav sach me uske aage horaha ho.
Raat ki khana maa ne meri man pasand banayee. Unko meri aadate meri pasand sab malum tha, jav vi wo mujh se khus hoti thi meri man pasand khana banake mere man jita karti thi. Hum ne sath me khana khaye. Raat me maine dJulor ke sunte huwe bapu ko daru pina nai diya.
Mera dhadkan tej horaha tha. Khana khane ke bad hamesa maa meri kamare aaya karti aur hum ghar ki samasya ko leke bahut lambi batein karte the. Wo mujhe ghar ki problem yese bataya karti jese main hi ghar ka main aadmi hu. Mujhe yeh baat se bahut khus milta tha. Maine kar vi dekhaya. Maa aaj vi aayegi. Main jarur unki tarif karunga wo aaj yese vi khus hai. Aur ekbar phir unko sach bolna hai yeh duniyama wo jesi dusri koi nahi hai unki andaj nirala hai. Mera dil me nirasa aur utsah ek hi sath ho raha tha. Main sochne vi laga maa agar meri baho me aaneke liye tayar hogai to mere liye isse khusi se badi baat kya hoga. Duniya me yesi khusi dusri koi ho hi nahi sakta aur yeh khusi pane ke liye mujhe diniya ki koi takat ruk nahi sakta tha. Mera dil aur dimag me fight ho raha tha.

Main kya kya soch raha tha sab khattam hogaya. Bhai daud ke mere kamare me aagaya aur mujhe bola bhaiya goodnight hum so rahe hai.

Maa ki jiwan me hamesa pese ka jarurat tha. Wo kavi himmat nahi harti. Jese tese wo ghar ko handle karleti rukha sukha hi sahi. Wo jitni khubsurat thi dil se vi kamal ki thi. Maa ka pyar se duniya me bada dusra pyar kuch ho hi nahi sakta yeh ehesas vi mujhe unhone diyatha. Par avi mujhe maa se pyar ho chuka hai, main unko chhodke kisi dusri ladki ko apni jiwan me mahato dena soch vi nai sakta hu. Wo subah ki kiran ki rosani se chamki hui sabnam ki tarah meri dil me chamak rehithi.
Wo kuch vi pehenti dashing dikhti thi. unki ada aur andaj maine kisi dusri ladki me dikha hi nahi tha. Wo har angle se perfect thi. Wo khana vi yese banati dil var nai jata usse banaya huwa har chij best hote hai bhala main kese bura hosakta hu. Pata nai inko kudarat ne kish hath se banayethe jo itni ajib ajib ki kasis inme kud kud ke bhara huwa tha.
Aaj mera dil bilkul udas hogaya. Maa ne man pasand khana khilake bas mera dil rakhne ka kosis kiya. Main av bacha nahi tha jo bas khana ke soche. Mujhe maa se bahut ghussa vi aaya agar ki jake usko pakad ke rape kardu lekin main maa ko mohobbat karne laga tha. Main apni maa ko apni biwi ko roop me dikhne lagatha. Lekin maa avi vi mujh se doori rakh rahi thi.
Maine darwaja band kiya aur whisky aur ciggrate nikala. Mujhe struggle ka apna din yaad aaya. Jav hum peso ki jang me jate hai toh woha hum ko bahut kuch karna padta hai,apna asul apna sidant ko vi kisi hadtak girana padta hai. Main ciggrate ke dhuwa me apna gujra huwa kal dikhne laga. Ek company me worker hokar dusri company ki owner tak safar itni aasani nai hoti hai. Jindagi bas fairytale nai hoti. Maine apna surwati kaam pe kya kuch nai kiya. Maine khud ko kitna jaruri banaya.
Main whisky lene laga. Mera dimag me ajib si tarang machhi. Pata nahi jav whisky lene lagta hu toh positive bichar ki baad aata hai. Maa mere sath isliye nahi bol rahi hai kyu ki main ab unka pehele wala beta nahi raha. Main unka chahanewala hu to maa kese mujh se baat karti. Wo kya kare kya nakare ki situation me hai. Main vi koi samanya aadmi nahi hu. Jav khud ko bada karna hai to pehele apni tarikese usko problem daldo aur khud usko isse paar karado. Yeh chij business me support karna nahi karna jesa hai jese politics me hoti hai. Maa ke sath vi maine yesa hi kiyatha.
Main kya nahi kar sakta hu. Bhai ko hostel daal sakta hu bapu ko purani jeevan me busy karade sakta hu. Aur tav maa meri sath akeli hoti toh kya karegi. Main janta hu needs create demand and demand create supply. Meri maa meri needs ho chuki thi aur main unki koi vi demand purti kar sakta hu. Mujhe maa se av kya dar sav to maine kehediya hu aur iske baad vi hum ek hi chhat ke niche hai.
Maine whisky ka aur ek chuski liya aur ciggrate mast khicha. Meri dimag me bahut idea chalne lage. Mera dil utsah se bhar gaya. Daru mujhe jaan varne lagi. Main koi aam ladka nahi hu. Maine jo kuch hi kiya apna tarike se kiya. Maine business kiya pesa kamaya sab kuch kiya. Av bas sadi karke ghar bithana tha lekin yeh maa ki manjuri bina samvav nai tha. Yeha kya sambhav nahi hota. Wohi maa thi jis ne mere gaal me thapad mara wohi maa thi jis ne meri muh me thuk diya ye wohi maa thi jo mere parchai vi dikhega toh vi jaan denewali kehenewali. Maine kar dikhaya, main samne aagaya ghar ke pareshani ko kam karne ka kosis kiya. Ek tarike se main unke aage hero huwa. Mera dil fir umang se bhara. “Meghna jesi aurat bahut muskil se milte hai beta” mera kaan me bapu ka yehi kehena gunj raha tha.
Owner dusra ho aur operation aap khud ko chalana ho to aap ki man me jarur faide me mili huwi peso me lobh paida hota hai aur aap apna operational kaam kuch alag andaj me karte hai. Isi hisab se to aap dusri company ka owner honeka kabiliyat me pahuch jate hai. Yeh kaam aur teji se ho sakta hai agar aap company ke owner ka dhyan dusri taraf modsakte hai aur staff ko hamesa dar me bandh sakte hai to. Yesi dar bas majburi walo ko hamesa bandh sakta hai jisko nahi bandhsakta hai uski rasta hamesa bahar hona chahiye.
Maine yese hi business kiya. Staff aur owner bich ka gap main hi tha. Staff saste utna padlikhe nahi the jo mere achha kaam aaye. Maine owner ko vi faida dilaya tha bas sidhi aanewali chij ko ghumake liyatha.
Aaj gadi me najar churake najar milake maa ko maine usi najar se dikhatha jese aam ladka ladkiko aakarsit hote huwe dikhte the. Maa jaan chuki hai. Main maa ko achhi tarah se janta hu. Wo mujhe bahut pyar karti hai chahe main jo vi karu.
Mujhe maa se phir akele me milna hai aur phir kehena hai..”maa aap koi pari ho, aap bahut khubsurat ho. Aap janti hai maa mujhe aap se mohobbat huwa hai. Aap ki mohobbat pane ke liye main kuch vi karsakta hu. Aap meri peheli pyar meri peheli mohobbat aur meri jaan meri sabkuch ho.
Darwaja me dastak sunai diya maine apna ciggrate aur whisky chhupaya. Meri dhadkan badgaya. Main anuman nahi kar paraha tha wo kaun hai phir vi mera dhadkan tej huwa. Main maa ko har tarah se sukh rakh sakta hu. Mujhe apni lund ki aakar aur gati se garv hai. Main dhire dhire darwaja ke taraf chala ek sakaratmak aur kalapanik soch ke sath.
Maa khud raat me sav soneka bad mere kamare me aarahi hai sayad kuch secret gair talukat ke liye jiska mujhe beshabri se intejar tha. Sacha pyar ka kuch na kuch asar to maa ko vi huwa hoga. Maa ka dil yese vi bete ke liye kuch vi karneke liye tayar ho sakta hai. Bapu ka badan to bilkul dhila ho chuka tha lekin maa to vari hui ek mast jismani aurat dikhti hai, unki andar vi chahat to hogi. Yeh to naurally hai har josili chut ek mast lund se chudne ki khwahis rakhti hai. Jav ek jawan kabil ladka apne liye kisi pagal premi ka tarah piche nahi chod raha hai toh! ek din to pyar me dil ko majboor ho na hi tha!.
Main unko dil aur badan dono tarikese khus rakh sakta hu. Main khud uncontrol ho raha tha.Mera khada lund dhoka khagaya. Mujhe apni upar daya aur hasi eksath huwa. Darwaja khultehi chor billi ka tarah bhaiya bolte bhai andar daud ke ghus gaya. Iska purana aadat avitak nai gaya tha. Wese vi hum ek hi kamare me soya karte the. Mujhe apne upar taras aaya. Uski face mujhe thoda maa ki tarah hi pyara lagta tha sayad isliye mujhe use kuch jyada hi lagab hai. Kamare ki dhuwa se wo khasne laga lekin wo mujhe av bilkul bimar nai laga. Maine apna nasa ko ek kinare lagadiya. Hum sath me soye. Wo maa ke bareme mera sawal ka jawaf de ke thak gaya aur kehene laga aap khud puchho maa se. Wo bahut utsahit tha. Hum do bhai sath me sogaye.
Wo aaj pila rang ki saree me thi. Aur hamesa ki tarah aaj vi wo bahut khubsurat dikh rahi thi. Maa bhai ko bula rahithi hum dono jage. Mujhe vi aaj kaam me jana tha bahut sare file jamma honge! Chaye rakh ke maa chalne lagi fir vi mera najar unki saree me kasi huwi moti gand se hat nayee paya jiska khubsurati ki compare dusra kisi se kiya nai ja sakta tha. Maa jav vi bithne ke liye gand ko piche taraf karti ya khadi hone ke liye gand ko piche se aage taraf lejati tav unki perfect gand unko bahut sexy dikhadeta tha. Avi vi unki kamar ke matak ke sath unke hilte gand kamal ki lag rahi thi. Main unko bahar janetak dikhta raha. Aur lund bas yese hi khada hogaya.
Main jaldi nahaya aur bapu ke sath kuch der ruka. Bapu thoda sahi ho rahe the. Wo mujhe dekh ke bahut khus hojate the yesa mera sath vi hota tha jav koi man pasand chij yu hi deta hi reheta hai to uski parchhai vi hame khus kardeta hai. Sayad main bapu ko daru ki bada bottle jesa dikh jata tha. Wo mujhe dekh ke hi ustahit horahe the. Hum ne kuch batein vi kiye. Fir main apni daily routine me lagne laga. Kaam hamesa ke tarah chalne laga. Jav business me customer hai to yeh to nadi ka tarah hi beheta hai. Mujhe har staff ka har samay kavi screw tight aur kavi screw loose karna padta tha. Jav koi company me naya aaye hai to usko company ke hisab se organized karna suru surume muskil hojata tha lekin bad me to uska vi aadat ban jata tha. Av to mera sath vi yesa hi huwa tha.
Bichwali baat bahut pareshan karadeta hai. Mujhe jyada late nahi hona tha. Main office se ghar me jaau. Darwaja me knock karte hi meri maa make up ke sath aage khadi ho jesi ki wo mera hi intezar me ho aur unke sath main pyar karta rahu.. Mujhe maa ko apni banake set hone ki khayal teji se aane laga.
Usdin maine apna mood banaya. Maine aaj maa ke sath baat karne ka than liya tha. Aaj mausam vi din ki barsha se bilkul thanda ho raha tha. Mujhe kisi aurat ke sath lapet ke soneka dil ho raha tha aur wo aurat sirf meri maa hi hosakti thi. Maine rasta me rum & coke, ciggrate aur meat liya. Savse badi baat maine red colour ka flower vi liya. Chahe kuch vi ho mujhe jitna jaldi ho sake maa ko hasil karna hi tha. Maine “avenger” ka oh cd vi liya aur “iron man” ka vi jiske liye mera bhai barbar mera gaal me chumi deta tha. Sayad mausam ka uttejana tha ya maa ke sath phir pyar ka baat ka izhar karne ka emotion, Mera dil bahut behek raha tha. Ishbar mujhe unki thappad ki koi parvah nahi tha.
Unko kaske bahome leneka bahut dil ho raha tha. Chahe kuch vi ho aaj unko kese vi manane ki kosis karunga. Ghusse me to wo aur lal mirchi ka tarah hi dikhti hai, bahut garam fir vi bahut khubsurat aur mast.
Barish fir honewala tha aur mausam aaj mujhe maa ke sath chipak ke lipatk ke sone ke liye uksa raha tha. Dhadkan tej ho raha tha jiske wajah se mujhe lambi lambi sanse lena pad raha tha, Yesa ehesas mujhe tav vi huwa tha jav mujhe unse pehele bar pyar hone ka ehesas huwa tha. Main khana vi barabar kha nai paya tha,dil khoya khoya reheta tha aur kavi to bilkul patang jesa! Yesa pyar me sav ko hota hi ho! lekin jis se me pyar karta tha wo khud mujhe khana khila rahi thi aur kam khaneki wajah puch rahi thi. Ajib baat tha jisko pyar karta tha uska sath vi tha aur uska pyar vi lekin fir vi main wo pyar ki dayara aur badana chaha raha tha.
Ghar me jatehi bhai daud ke aaya aur kuch der kiye bina hi maine wo red flower aur meat bhai ko dete bola “maa ko dena”. Wo daud ke gaya fir daud ke aaya. Mujhe hasi laga usne maa ko bas meat hai bola aur yu hi aaya. Fir vi maa samajhdar thi.
Maine bahar se hi ice break karte maa se bola “maa mujhe aaj thodi pina hai.” maa ne vi samanya se jawaf di ” Bapu ko nai pilana beta”. Humara jhagade ke bad yeh pehela sambad tha. Hum ne sath me khana khaye. Maa ki hath ki khana jitna vi tariff karu utna hi kam tha.Khana khane ke bad main apne kamare me gaya aur meat ke sath do glass yu hi pi liya lekin mera dimag me maa ko lekar bahut chij ghum raha tha.
Dhire dhire barish vi horahatha. Main apna kamare se nikla. Bhai pad raha tha. Maine use apni homework karne ke bad dekhlena bolke wo cd dediya. Main aage rasoi ke taraf bada. Maa bartan saaf kar rahi thi. Maine maa se kaha “maa kaam khatam honeka baad mujhse mil lijiye please, main aap ka intezar karunga” main fir apne kamare me chala. Main cigratte pite maa ka intezar kar raha tha.
Ajib sa khayal aaya, sex ke liye kavi vi koi vi animal me male ko hi attack karna parta hai female bas nakhre karti halaki wo vi kam enjoy nai karti. Maa female thi to main male tha lekin hum jaanwar nai the, maine lambi sans lete socha kash kuch der hum janwar hi hote. Maa avitak nayee aarahi thi mujhe nirasa huwa. Mujhe maa ke upar ghussa aanewala tha lekin maa aaneki sanket mujhe milgaya.
Main vi usi maa ka beta hu mujhe himmat se kaam lena tha. Maa ka chehera pareshan dikh raha tha fir vi bahut khub dikh rahi thi. Maa kamare me aatehi mera dhadkan mera bas me nai raha. Bahar ka thandi ka mehesus mera badan av kar raha tha.

Kash maa muskurake mera himmat badati. Maa ne apne hath ka flower mujhe dikhate kaha “yeh sav kya hai beta! Main tumhari maa hu. “. Maa ki mayus vari chehera aur vi achhi dikh rai thi. Musibat aur pareshani ka solution thanda dil aur dimag hai. Maine lambi sanse lete kaha “maa aap mujhe bahut achhi lagti ho” Maa ne mere taraf pareshani se dekha aur kaha “tum bahut samajhdar ho, khud ko sawal kyu nai karte kya maa beta me yesi sambandh jahej hai?” Maine fir apni najar ko unki baye taraf karte dhire se kaha “Pyar me to hai”.
Maa aur hairan hui lekin ishbar unko mere upar ghussa dikhane se vi jyada mujhe samjhane ka sujh raha tha. “Ravi main vi tujhe pyar karti hu beta, bahut pyar karti hu. Mujhe teri bahut fikar hai,main janti hu tume vi hamari fikar hai, haa yeh vi pyar hai lekin wo pyar alag hai. Tu hi bata ish duniya me yesa kaun maa bete hai jo ek dusre ko pyar nai karte hai?”
Mujhe maa ko chumne ka bahut dil ho raha tha lekin wo wasul aur sidant se vari aurat thi isliye to bapu jese fajul aadmi ko vi wo apne pujya pati man rai thi. Agar dusri aurat inki jesi khubsurat ho aur bapu jesa pati ho to do minute vi nai rukti. Isliye unke sath jo vi karna tha mujhe soch samajh kar karna tha. Maa ne sawal bhari najar se mujhe dikhte kaha “beta tu kese pyar karta hai mujhe! Main koi ladki nahi h uteri umarki,Main jawan bete ki maa hu aur wo jawan beta tu khud hai. Jarur maine tume achhi sanskar nai diyee isliye yeh mera sath ho raha hai.” kamare ki ujeli se vi mujhe maa ki chehera chamak jyada lag raha tha. Uska sabd jitne vi tikhe ho aawaj sunne ko dil aur kar raha tha. “agar khuda mujhe puchhe ki main kisliye lucky hu to jawaf aap ho maa. Aap jesi maa dusra nai hoga. Har problem me khuda se vi pehele aap ka chehera yaad aata hai. Aap bahut achhi ho maa dil se aur badan se vi. ” maa ne lambi sanse li aur sidhi boli “Beta sach batao tum pyar vyar ki lambi baat isliye kehe rahe ho kyu ki tume mere sath gandhi chij karneki khwahis hai , hai ki nahi ?” maa dil ke geherai tak jane wali baat kar rai thi. Kash wo gandhi chij ke badala achhe savd ki istemal karti. Maine fir jawaf diya “nahi maa mujhe aap ka sath rehena hai.” maa frustred ho ke muskurai aur boli “wo to hum hai na!”. Mera swar dav gaya fir vi maine bola.”thik usitarah jis tarah bapu ko aap ke sath rehena ka mauka mila hai.. ”
maa samajh chuki thi main unse sadi karna chahata hu. Pila rang ki saree aur gale ke mangalsutra unko aur aakarsit dikha rahe the. Kash wo mangalsutra maine pehenaya hota unko. Maa mujhe dikhi lekin main vi aaj uttejana se jyada gamvir aur chintit dikh raha tha. Maa ne lambi sanse lete kahi “Ravi, duniya me yesa kavi vi nahi huwa hai maa aur bête yese koi soch vi nai sakte” maine unko dikhte kaha. “Mujhe duniya ki parvah nahi hai. Maa Aap ko main bas isliye nahi chahata hu ki aap itni achhi aur khubsurat ho isliye chahata hu ki aap ke sath me main khud ko bahut achha mehesus karta hu. Jav vi aap ko gaur se dikhta hu main khud soch me pad jata hu koi pari ya apsara itne niche kese udsakti hai,jav vi aap ke sath me hota hu mujhe kisi chij ki dukh nahi hoti. “. Maa fir wohi nirasa me bolne lagi”kya dikha hai yesa mujhme tune Ravi? Tu chahe to mujh se jawan aur khubsurat ladki pasakta hai beta.” maine aaj dil khulke kaha “aap vi nai janti aap kitni achhi ho maa!jav se aap ko us najariya se dekha hu koi vi ladki bahut fiki lagti hai.”
Kamare me kuch sannata chhaya.
Maa mere liye oxygen jese ban chuki h. Main vi unka beta hu aur main jo vi kar raha tha soch samajhkar. Maa ke sath sadi karne ka faisala mere liye patte ka ghar jesa nai tha.
Maa dusri daye taraf ghumi hui thi aur apni ungliya sadka rai thi. Khud ko rokna bahut muskil ho raha tha. Thanda mausam aur mere kamare me,mere hi samne duniya ki savse jyada khubsurat aurat khadi thi. Maa ek per ko thoda baye taraf leke khud dusri daye paer ke bal bar khadi thi jiski wajah se unki daye taraf ke kulhe bade aur aakarsak dikh raha tha. Maine aahiste se kaha “Aap mujhe jo khusi de sakti ho dusre koi vi de nahi sakta”
Mujhe ajib sa umag aagaya. Maa thodi aage ke taraf chali aur mujhse biparit huwi. Itna thanda me vi mera khun garam ho raha tha. Mera taraf maa ki pichwadi thi. Unki blouse aur saree ki bich me wo gori moti kammar thodi nangi dikh rai thi. Bichme thodi patali aur fir niche faila huwa unki matakwali kamar kamal dikh raha tha. Maa apni ang ko bahut chhupakar rakhti thi, yeh insani aadat thi jo jyada chhupati hai uski to aur jyada dikhne ka dil karta hai. Maa ki kariv 7/8 inch nangi kamar mujhe bahut pasand aarahe the kash main ek bar unko puri nangi dekh pata.
Itne saal unke sath rehekar vi mujhe unki navel vi barabar dikhne ko nai mila tha. Wo hamesa pallu ko bahut tarike se set karti thi. Us din maa ko chaddi pehente huwe dikhna mere liye bahut bada avsar tha. Unki kamar me mere najar kuch samay ke liye tham gaye fir uske thik niche saree me kasi huwi unki gand mast uvre huwe najar aarahe the. Mujhe unko pichhese kas ke pakadne ka dil huwa. Thandi hawa thandi mausam. Bapu kamare me bimar soye huwe bhai tv dekhte huwe aur yeh kamare me main aur meri khubsurat maa.
Main fir bola “main aapko duniya ki sav khusi dilaunga, aap ko rani ki tarah rakhunga.” mujhe yesa laga maa meri baat samajh rai hai. Mera dil me ajib sa romance varne laga. Sayad mujhe yesa laga mujhe hi aage badna tha kyu ki main marad hu. Mujhe ajib tarah ke mixed feelings ho rahe the. Jiwan me mera dil itni romanchit kavi nai huwa. Aur andar hi andar main yesa thrill mehesus kar raha tha. Jav maine pehelibar apne owner se kuch apne upar debited invoices gayab kardiya tha tav vi main itna thrill mehesus nahi kar raha tha jitna av kar raha tha.
lekin begair risk yeha hota hi kya hai. Main maa ko pakdunga unhe pichese bahome lunga aur kahunga “yeh duniya chalti rahegi lekin hum aaj he kal kya pata,aap aaj itni bahut khubsurat kavi dikhogi ya nai. Main aap ka hi hissa hu, aap hi me sama jana chahata hu” Mera dil dhadak raha tha lekin ish bar unke dar ke mare nahi balki kahi maa mere sath degi toh! Main kese samhal paunga us khusi me khud ko.
Wo koi mamuli aurat nai thi. Maine thoda galat kardiya. Main behek gaya tha. Maa ki khubsurat badan mera pyar ki kamjori bani.Maine unko pichese pakadne ki kosis kiya. Maine apna hath unki pet ke taraf aage badaya hi tha maa ne jhat se birodh kardi aur wo mujh se alag huwee. Wo mujhe ajib tarah se dikhne lagi. Main kuch pal ke liye ghabra gaya. Bapu sahi the aur duniya me unse bade kismatwala koi ho hi nai sakta.
Maa ne sidhi meri aakh me dikhte kaha “dekho Ravi yeh bas pagalpan hi hai. Tum khud ko samjhalo mere laal, main tumhari maa hu,tumhari janm denewali maa. Khuda se darna jaruri hai beta, main yeh sab soch vi nahi sakti. ”
Maine apna sar ko niche kiya sayad maine maa ki pet ko apne hath se kuch jyada hi mehesus kiya tha. Mujhe maa bahar janeka sanket milgaya. Vala hi thappad namila ho jawaf to mujhe barabar milgaya. Mera hi kamjori tha ishtarah unko maine pakadne ki kosis karke sanp ke billi me hath dalna jesa hi tha aur savse badi baat maine apne passion gumadiya jiski wajah se mera pyar vari baat ka asar vi sayad maa ko av fika lage ho. Isilye Mere unsav pyar vari baato ko maa ne pagalpan ke naam di aur wo yu hi kamare se nikaldi.
Maa dur honetak main unhe dikhta raha. Dil me ghussa,taklif aur pyar tha lekin av chunauti tha. Pagalpan diwanapan kuch vi ho maa vi janti hai main koi pagal nahi hu. Ha yeh baat to main khud jangaya tha main apni maa ka aashiq buri tarah se ho chuka tha.
Unke liye khuda jo vi hai mere liye to khuda asamvav ko samvav karne wale aur sacha pyar ko milane wale bade samarthyawan sakti hai toh mujhe khuda se darna hi kya tha.
Main avi vi uspal me khogayatha jispal maine unki pet apne hath se kuch pal mehesus kiyatha. Kitna komal thi unki woha. Main khogaya maa ki badan ke khusbu unki komal pet ki mehesusi kash wo pal thama reheta!
Lund avi khada ho raha tha.
Main fir glass pakadne laga. Aaj maine pura kar dikhaya, maine fir sabit kardiya main unko avi vi chahata hu pehele se vi jyada.
Maa kya karti mujhe gali deti aur thapad deti vi main badalne wala nai tha aur mera sath gumana vi unke liye vi utna achha nai tha pura parivar mera grip me aachuka tha aur main tha to unka hi beta. Mujhe av bapu ke jariye jana tha, main maa ke mamta se wakef hu to bapu unki pyar se wakef hai. Maine cigrrate jalaya. Aaj dhuwe gol gol hoke upar jarahe the. Itni thandi raat fajul hogai. Lund avi vi kadak tha. Mujhe biswas nai hota tha dusri ladki isko muh me lekar vi khada nai karpati aur aaj yeh maa ki kamar aur gand ko kariv pakar hi mundi hila raha tha lekin maa ki gand hilte huwe av to dur ho chuke the. Mujhe lund ko shant karna tha.
(maa daud ke kamare me aagai,maine pant lagane ka jaruri vi nai samjha bas chaddi me darwaja kholdiya. Maa bahut pareshani me thi. “Ravi chhotu ko kuch huwa hai,uski muh se khun nikal raha hai.” yeh to ho na hi tha wo bimar hokar vi kuch vi kha raha tha aaj usne mans vi jyada khaya tha. Maa bahut jaldi se bolne lagi “beta kuch jaldi karna padega chotu khun ughel raha hai” Main kavi yesa ho nai karta tha. Chotu mera vi bhai hai lekin achha businessman hone ka nate mujhe chance ka matlav achhi tarah se malum tha. Maa hamesa mera pyar ka jawaf kavi thappad kavi tikhi sabd se de aarahi thi. Maine apne aakh se maa ko niche sanket kiya jaha mera lund avitak unki karan se khada tha. Maa ke pash mera sath av fajul batein karne ka samay kaha tha. Wo khud jald andar aagai aur jaldi se boli “main janti thi tum pyar vyar sab yu hi bol rahe the tume bas mujh se yehi chahiyethi” maa mere pyar se hi na sahi bhai ke pyar se majbur hogaithi. Sach me bhai unke liye bahut pyara tha. Lekin mera bas maa ke sath chudai ki khwahis nai tha lekin yeh vi pyar ka ek hissa hi tha jisko mujhe av buri tarah se jaruri ho gaya tha.Maa jaldi bistar par gayee aur boli “Ravi jo vi karna jaldi karle beta chotu ki halat najuk hai.” Maa khud saree ki andar se chaddi nikal rai thi. Maine vi apna chaddi nikaldiya. Maa ko jaldi tha main bistar pe jatehi unhone mujhe pakadte kaha “jaldi Ravi” Main jaldi jaldi unki upar chad gaya aur apni hath se unki chuchi davate unko chumte Kaha “aap yeh mat samajhna ki mujhe bas aap se yehi chahiye tha,mujhe aap se sadi vi karna hai ise bas aap suruwat man lena maa.” Maa bas jaldi karneko davav dal rahi thi maine apna pura lund unki chut ki andar ghused diya. Duniya ki itne sare jaga dikha huwa mujhe uspal maa ki bas inch var ki chut hi duniya ke savse achha swarg jesa laga. Main usko yese hi mehesus karna chahata tha. “Ravi kya huwa!”.
Mujhe sav yaad aarahatha unki thappad unki gali aur wo sav batein. Mujhe yeh chut bahut muskil se mili hai. Maine maa ko chodna suru kardiya. Lund geherai tak jake thumka lagane laga. Main unhe yese chod raha tha jese ki main fir unki niche wale pet me apne ko janam dene wala hu. Maa ne puri tarah se tange chaudi kardi aur mujhe jaldi jhadne ke liye apni gand utha uthake chudwane lagi. Main vi machine ke tarah unhe chod raha tha. main muskil se bol raha tha “maa huh huh I lov..e….yo..u… aa…p mujh se sadi hummmm kar…ogi na?…” Maa sanse le lekar bol rai thi.”ummm….ha ..kar….ungi, tu…, mer…a l..al….” maine unhe jod jod se pelne laga. maa jaldi se boli “umm,…..cho…tu..ki…um ..ha..laa..t….um….” maa sar upar karke niche dikh rai thi sayad usko lund dekhna tha ya wo jaldi me lund ko jhadte huwe dikhna chahati thi. Main bahut khus huwa. Maa ne mujhe apne honewala sohar manliya. Wo av puri majbur ho chuki hai. Main khus hokar unko sar ko sidha karte chumma lekar mast jaldi jaldi unhe chodne laga aur kehene laga “aap bahut khubsurat ho pari ki vi rani ho. Av chhotu mera jimmewari hai, aap fikar mat karo. “ main sanse ruk ruk kar bol raha tha…mera lund ne pani teji se nikaldiya maa jhat se alag huwee” )
Maine apna dono aakh ekbar band kiya aur khola. Kamara sunsan tha maa gayab ho chuki thi. Mere lund ke pure pani charotaraf girgaya. Mujhe apne laparbahi par ghussa aaya fir vi maine towel se kuch saaf kiya. Av aakar mera Lund shant huwa. Yeh achha fantasy tha lekin sach me to mujhe maa ki chut to kya unki navi me barabar hath lagane ki mauka jawani me aajtak namili. Maine apne nasa ko ek side me lagaya. Sayad bhai itna dertak tv dekh raha hoga usko to aaj dashera jesa laga hoga. Kuch der me wo daud ke aaya. Maa ne mana kardiya bhaiya bolke ho haste haste bistar pe aagaya.
Maa hamesa usko jaldi sone ke liye majbur karti. Yese time schedule me wo sakht thi kitne bar to maine vi dat suna tha bachpan me fir vi dil ki itni komal thi ki kuch ghussa hum jhuthmuth se karte to vi manane ke liye wo khud vi sath me bithke tv dikhti thi. Wo sav kuch pyar ke davav se karti thi. Unki tamacha aur thuk hi mere jiwan me unse hui kade partirodh the. Bhai avenger ka kahani apna hisav se suna raha tha wo hulk ka jyada baat kar raha tha sayad wo mera bachpan ka favourite wrestler tha. Lekin wo kya kya bol raha tha mere samajh ke bahar tha. Jiske karan mujhe jaldi nind aagaya.
Wo aaj nile saree me thi. Har din wo bilkul nayee dikhti. Unko yeh sav ke mamile me manna padta tha. Unko dikh ke dil me apne aap utsah varjata tha. Wo kisi vi rang ki saree pehene yesa lagta tha koi vi rang unke liye hi bana huwa ho fir vi wo kali saree me jyada dashing dikhti thi. Hum dono jage. Maa purane bate bolne lagi pehele fresh bad me chaye. Maa raat ki baat ko bhulake bhai ki sikayat karte boli “Ravi yeh raatvar film dekh raha tha. Aaj se tv room me tala lagadena. Bhai ulte me maa ki sikayat karne laga “bhaiya ne mujhe hw ke bad dikhne ko kaha tha maine wesa hi kiya tha. Bhaiya mujhe maa ke karan wo plane ki fight aadhatak dikhne ko mila.wo jahaj ke upar bhoot ..bhoot..aakash” wo ajib se bol raha tha. Maa ki hasi chhuti. Maa ko haste dikh ke mujhe bahut achha laga. Yeh to samanya baat hai koi vi chij hum bar bar karte hai to wo aadate banti hai av maa ke sath mera pyar aur sadi ka purpose nayee baat nahi raha. Kal raat maine maa ke upar jo pyar vari batein barsaya tha jarur iska asar to kuch na kuch to huwa hoga. Main janta hu maa mujhe pyar karti hai aur maa ki badan me vi wo chaha hai jo chaha har aurat me hoti hai. Aur maa yeh vi janta hai maa ki bas ha me wo sab unhe apne bête se hi jald mil sakti hai. Bahut din ke baad unki hasi nikli thi. Unki hasi vi kamal ki thi wo hasti to bas yesa lagta avi suraj bahar nikle ho. Maine khusi se bhai ke galo me laad pyar se chuma liya. Hum pehele vi yese the.
Kash maa meri biwi hoti aur bhai mera beta tav to main unki vi chumma le sakta. Maa bahar chalne lagi aur mera najar unko hamesa ki tarah unki pichhe the. Maa ke muskurayee huwi chehera se mujhe kafi sakartmak sanket milne laga, maa wese vi mujhe vi khusi dikhna chahati thi. Yeh kitne achhe baat thi jo aurat se maa ki mamta mili hai us aurat se fir patni ki sukh miljati.
Sayad mujhe aur passion ki jarurat tha. Maa ko barbar pyar ke baat karne se behatar mujhe unki dil jitne ke liye bahut kaam karna tha. Meri maa se mujhe itna mohobbat ho chuka tha main bas hum do ka duniya kalpana karne laga, jaha koi na ho bas hum maa aur bete 24X7 sath me rahe aur bas ek dusre ko pyar karte rahe. Unki har ada pe main fida ho chuka tha.
Wo aurat jiske pet me mera jiwan suru huwi thi aur jiske dudh pike main bada huwa tha wo sach me bahut khas thi. Wo aurat bas sadharan maa nai thi. Kash fir mera bachpana laut aata jaha meri maa mujhe god me leke apni dudh pila rai thi aur main apna hath se jane anjane me unki dusri sensative chuchi ke sath khel raha tha. Fir vi maa haste laad pyar se mere hath ko pakadte apni komal oth se chumti thi aur bar bar meri muh se fisal rai unki nipple ko wo khud pyar se haste meri muh me de rai thi kuch bachpana andaj me aur kuch bachpana pyari sararati nakhre ke sath wo mujh se baat kar rai thi jo mere samajh ke bahar the fir vi main khusi se apna paer chalakar unko sanket karta tha yehi kehene ke liye main bahut khus hu.

Mera dil fir ekbar unki nipple ko muh me leneka liye betav hogaya tha av to mere yadein meri kalpana me ghul chuke the. Mujhe laga har janam ke liye bhagwan inki hi pet chune aur mujhe bachpan se hi inki dudh pineko mile.
Maa ki muskurahat aur khusi vari chehera ka raj bapu the, mujhe khed huwa ish baat par nahi ki bapu thik huwe ish baat par khed huwa ki main achhi khasa bharam me tha. Bapu ko dekh ke mujhe vi khusi mili wo av pehele ke tarah baat karne lage the aur unki badan me vi av tagat tha. Maine bas dawa karwa diyatha baki to maa ka kamal tha. Wo bapu ke khana se lekar har chij me caring kar rai thi. Ghar me koi vi bimar ho aadha dard to yeh khud leke ghumti thi, ajib si aurat thi khud kav bimar huwee kav thik huwi pata vi nahi lekin humara usko bahut fikar hota tha. Jav hamara bimar sai ho to jyada khusi vi inko hi hoti thi. Bapu ke chehere me khusi tha. Main bahar maa se mila. Maa ke chehera aaj aur ujela rang laga raha tha. Maa bapu ke sehet ke bareme baat kar rai thi. Bapu ka health sahi honepar mujhe vi bahut khusi mila lekin mera gala barbar sukh raha tha. Andar ek gehera khadal ban raha tha.
Bapu ke health le liye maine dubara bas yu hi unko cheak up karwa diya. Av sav sahi tha dJulor ne daru kam pineko kaha.

Vipin mere liye isliye vi bafadar tha kyu ki company ke har aadmi mera pakad me the aur meri knowledge ko usko andaja tha. Vipin ko worker isliye mante the kyu ki wo mera kariv jyada reheta tha. Vipin vi yeh baat ko janta tha mera sath jitna bafadar rehega uske liye utne hi achhi baat thi. Din var ka kaam ka report Vipin khud mujhe deta tha kaam ke hisab se wo sabkuch kar raha tha av to main bas uski advice ko confirm karta tha. Business me jav achhi khasi faida mil rahe ho to normal situation me usme kisi change ki jarurat nahi hota hai. Aajkal mujhe ghar me jana jaldi hota tha jese ki mere avi avi sadi huwee ho.
Maa bapu ke kamare me thi. Bhai pad raha tha. Company me khas kuch kaam to nahi tha lekin mera badan ekdum thaka huwa tha. Mujhe bahut udasin laga. Avi avi mujhe ajib mehesus huwa dil sukha jesa. Maine mehesus kiya mujhe maa ko aur bapu ko ek sath me dikhna vi takleef ho raha tha. Yeh bilkul galat hai lekin main khud ko kese samjha sakta tha.
Mere aaneki khavar hote hi maa nasta leke aagayee. Mera gala sukh raha tha. Main itna bekar kavi nai huwa karta tha. Mera muh se giri har savd ke mahine hote the. Lekin maa ko iska asar nahona yeh to ajib tha. Maa table me nasta rakh ke meri taraf dekhne lagi. Main nirash huwa tha unki mathe ki bindiya chamak rahi thi jiske karan wo aur achhi dikh rahi thi. “kya huwa beta?” Main hairan tha av kya batana tha kitna batana tha ki mujhe unse pyar hogaya hai ishq hogaya hai. Apni maa se ishq hone wala beta ka halat isse vi bura hosakta hai sayad.
Main bacho ki tarah roke maa ko hasil karne wala nahi hu agar unse sadi karunga to mard hokar hi karunga. Apne bête ki muh se itna sabkuch sunne ke baat maa mere sath itni normal kese hosakti hai! Maa mere kariv aayee. “Ravi kya aaj kaam jyada tha?”. “ha maa aaj kuch jyada kaam tha aur mera thoda sar dard vi ho raha hai heavy coffee banadijiye mere liye.”
Nasta karne ke bad main tv me news dekhne laga. Bapu bahar garden me idhar udhar ghum rahe the bhai homework kar raha tha aur maharani andar rasoi me thi. Dil kar raha tha rasoi me jaake unse pyar karu lekin yeh to bas achhi fantasy ban sakta tha.
Kuch der me maa vi tv kamare me aagai. Mujhe bahut achha laga. Meri maa jav vi mere sath hoti thi mujhe bahut achha mehesus hota tha. Main barbar unke taraf hi dikh raha tha. Wo mere tabiyat ke bareme puchh rahi thi aur phir puchne lagi “aaj kya khaneki dil hai?” Yeh purani baat thi . “aap kuch vi banao maa aap ki hath se kuch vi achi hi banti hai.” Maa vi mere sath barabar bol nai parahi thi. Na wo khud mere baat samajh rahi thi nahi apne baat mujhe samjha parahi thi.
Kuch der me bapu vi aagaye. Hum maa bête aur bapu kuch der sath me tv dekhte rahe uspal mujhe ajib mehesus huwa. Bapu ko dekhkar to maa unki bahu jesi hi dikhti thi mera badan me ajib si tarang paida huwee. Ek pal ke liye maine maa aur bapu ko bahu aur sasur ke rup me dikha. Bapu ka begair baal ka sar duble patle badan aur bimar chaldhal aur maa to yesi dikhti thi jese avi khili huwee phool ho. Sach me mujhe bahut aanand aaya aur wo dikhtevi sasur bahu jese hi.
Aaj bapu mujh se ishara me baat kar rahe the maa vi samajh chuki thi. Maa meri taraf dikhte boli “Ravi tumhare bapu ka to bolna hi bekar hai bapu ko jyada pina mat dena bas aadhi glass se jyada nahi”. Bapu aadmi vi bekar hai itni khubsurat biwi hokar inko nase ki jarurat padi hai jav ki maa khud ek desi daru jesi ki tarah thi jisko pine ke liye bas bapu ko sauvagya mila tha. Agar mujhe maa milti toh sayad dusri nase ki mujhe jarurat hi nahi hota.
Saam ho chuka tha humne khana vi khaye. Main barbar maa ko dikh raha tha. Hum maa bête ajib se condition me the. Bapu to bahut khus the unhe bahut din bad daru mil raha tha.
Bapu ko maine rok nai paya unhone ek sanse me hi daru ko dawa ke tarah nighal diya tav jake bapu hasne lage. “Meghna ko meri bahut fikar hai, daru se jaan aata hai jaan jata nahi usko kya malum” bapu hasne lage. Meghna meri maa hai ishbar maine vi ek glass pura chadaya. Mujhe to bas Meghna ke bareme sunna tha. “Bapu jav aap bimar huwe to wo bahut pareshan thi.” “janta hu beta, dil ki bahut komal hai.” Bapu ko itna jald nasa chadne lagatha av to wo ro vi sakte the mujhe ajib laga bapu itne daru pite fir vi unko nasa bahut jaldi chad jata tha. Bapu ka dil to aur jyada komal hogaya.”jav maine use dekha tha bas usko dekhkar hi apni biwi chuna tha lekin mujhe kya pata wo itni achhi vi hai”. Bapu chup hokar kuch sochne lage aur muh ko ajib se kholkar sanse fekne lage. Mujhe yeh baat bahut achhi lagi wo sach me bahut achhi hai.
“usko maine kuch de nai paya, tune hi kar dikhaya. Ravi tu mera beta kam Meghna ka beta jyada lagta hai jimmewari ki hisav se,fir vi hum me ek baat to hai.” Bapu ne glass uthaye maine vi haske takra diya. Pata nahi bapu baat ko ghuma rahethe ya mera sar ghum raha tha maine ek ciggrate nikala. “Tum maa bête dono mujhe bahut pyar karte ho aur main uska layak vi nahi hu. Beta tuj se achha beta sayad kam bap ko milte hai. Kash mere pash tere pyar ke badale denewali koi chij hoti ”. Baat sidhi thi, Bapu ke pash wo aurat thi jiske ko pane ke liye main kuch vi khone ke liye tayar tha. Kash main socially bapu se maa ki hath mag sakta! baat pagal pan ka tarah tha lekin mere liye isse achha mitha khwab kuch ho hi nahi sakta tha. Main daru aur ciggrate ka maza le raha tha aur maa ki bareme baat karne ka maza hi kuch aur tha.
“Ravi tumhara wo ladki ke sath kya huwa beta?” Main kya bolta. “bilkul maa ki tarah hi hai bapu lekin wo majbur vi nahi hai.” Bapu hase. “Hum bap bête ki kundali me yese hi aurat milegi lagte hai.” Asal me hum bap bête ke liye bas ek hi aurat thi yeh duniya me. “tera pash kya nahi hai tu dikhta vi achha hai aur tujme himmat vi hai, kuch to karan batayee hogi. Tu kuch vi karsakta hai jarur mana sakta hai. Javtak ha nabolegi tu apne tarike se lag lekin uske dil ko chot nadena. Ek baat jan le beta Meghna me vi ek kamjori hai.” Maine muh me lagaya huwa daru ki glass ko rok ke bapu ki baat sunne laga. “wo kya bapu?”. Mujhe laga tha bapu mujhe maa ki gopya tala ki chavi dene wale hai.“Jalan” yeh to bilkul faltu baat tha. Bapu sach me faltu aadmi the. Jalan maa ki kamjori bas nahi hai meri vi hai bapu ki vi hai aur sara duniya ki kamjori hi yeh hai. Asal me yeh kamjori nahi hai yeh aadmi ko aur takat deta hai,dusrese aage badne ke liye. Business me mera sath yesa bahut huwa hai. Jealous ek hatiyar hai uski use aur result yeh to aadmi ke upar depend hote hai.
Main wese hi hasne laga. Bapu kya samjhe wo vi hasne lage. “tume pata hai jav main dusra aurat ke bareme ache baat karu to uska chehera kesa hota hai! Apni lips ko ajib se katti hai ghusse se.” bapu fir hasne lage. Meghna lips katti hai mujhe bas itna samajh me aaya. Mujhe av bapu ka baat me dhyan nai raha, main dhire dhire ciggratte ko hawame uda raha tha aur mujhe wo dekhna bahut achha lag raha tha. Meghna unki biwi hai koi vi aurat apne pati dusri aurat ke tarif kare to yesa jalan to hoti hi hai yeh kaun si baat hai. “Wo us umar me vi yesi thi.”Bapu suru hogaye. Yeha meri kahani ko chodkar bapu apne kahani khusi se bata rahe the. Mujhe laga aaj bapu ko daru itna hi kafi huwa hai. “mujhe pata vi nahi tha wo vi mujhe pasand karti hai maine tir Maratha…” main sun raha tha sayad mujhe av bapu ki baat ko likhna jaruri tha kyu ki mera dimag dhila hogaya tha ya kahu main kahi kho gaya tha. Daru akela pina achha hota hai. Maine vi aaj control gumadiya. Bapu ka kahani khattam hogaya tha aur wo has rahe the. Daru unko josh de raha tha lekin mujhe aaj daru se mithi dard mil raha tha. Main bapu ko chhodne ke liye gaya. Utne nase honeka baad vi mujhe maa ko ek bar fir dekhneka dil ho raha tha. Maa so rahi thi. Main andar tak gaya. Bapu muh me ek ungli lagake chup hone ka sanket kar rahe the. Maa ki aankh band thi unki baal aage ki taraf aaye huwe the. Wo masoom dikh rahi thi. Kash main avi unke sath so sakta unki masoom chehera ko mehesus kar sakta.
Subah mujhe chakkar laga. Mujhe kal ki bapu ki baat kuch yad aagai. Wohi baat “jalan”, mujhe kuch samajh me aagaya. Main bapu ki baat ko jod raha tha. Wo maa ko sadi karne ke liye pehele se tayar the lekin maa ke taraf se pehele na ho raha tha. Fir bapu khud unse mile kuch samay bitaye unke tariff kiye fir vi maa sadi ke liye tayar nahi thi. Lekin maa ko apni tariff sunne ka bahut dil hota tha jiski wo hakdar thi. Aakhirkar bapu ne maa ko yeh bataya agar sadi karne ke liye wo raji ho to bapu unke sath karne ke liye tayar hai agar nahi hai to unko dusri ladki vi pasand aagai hi hai. Sach me baat ajib thi maa ne bapu ko baat ko chhodkar dusri ladki me dilchaspi dikhayee aur uski dusri din bad unki sadi taya huwi thi. Mujhe avi vi sar dard ho raha tha. Oth katnewali baat kya tha! Av mujhe vi hasi laga jav maa ke sath bapu dusri ladki ke sath baat karte to wo apni oth ko dant se katke khud pareshan hojati thi. Iska matlab maa ko sadi karna to majburi hi tha aur bapu ko jaldi karneka. Ajib baat thi lekin av mujhe kuch samajh me aachuka tha, maine avitak maa ko jalte huwe kavi nahi dikhatha lekin maa ko apni tarif achhi lagti hai yeh to maine vi mehesus kiya tha duniya me har aurat yehi chahati hai marad unke sundarta ke bareme geet aur gajal likhe.
Bapu kamal ke the unhone kaha tha-Meghna ko aadat hi ho chuki thi apne tarif sunne ke mujhe kya malum main to bas sach bol raha tha jhut to maine dusri ladki ke bareme bola tha- Bapu sahi the maine jitne vi maa ke samne unke bareme bola tha wo bas tariff nahi tha sachai tha.
Mera lund khada hogaya. Mere dimag me wohi baat aagaya. Maa aur main kisi kamare me the aur maine maa se kaha. “aap bahut khubsurat ho mere peheli pasand ho. Agar aap ko yeh sab sach me sahi nahi lagta hai to main meri dusri pasand se sadi karunga. Yeh mera fantasy tha. Maa apni laal oth kaat rahi thi wo pareshan ho rahi thi. Wo bahut mast dikh rahi thi.
“Agar mujhe aap namili to kewal aap ki karan nai mili maine pura kosis kiya maa. Pata hai maa wo ladki ki aakh bahut bade aap se vi bade hai. Usko dekha to mujhe aap ki jhalak usme mili” Maa mere taraf pareshani se dikhte boli. “Ravi duniya bahut bura hai humko samajh nahi payega”
Main unke kariv jake unki kaan ke najdik jake bolne laga “jis duniya me aap jesi aurat paida ho sakti ho, wo duniya buri kese hosakta hai maa, jara dekhu to aap ko.” Maine unki sar ko thoda upar karte bola “bas unko hame samajhne ke liye samay chahiye maa, jese aap ko lagithi.” Maa av mere pyar me har gayee thi. Wo bin kuch bole mere bahome aagai. Bapu so chuke the aur bhai vi. Maine maa ko gaal chumte unko baho me jod se kaste kaha “aap itni achhi kyu ho maa?” Maa mere sawal ka jawaf dene ke badale mere bahome khud ko kaske bolne lagi “tum mujhe itni pasand kyu karte ho Ravi?”. Maine maa ko gaal me chumte bola “kyu ki aap bahut achi ho maa bahut achhi aap jesi koi nahi hai” Maine maa ko god me uthaya. Maa apne nirdosh pyar vari nayan se mujhe dikh rahi thi aur unki najar vi kehe rehethi main unhe uthakar bistar ke kariv le jarahatha unhe dard vari pyar ka wo mitha mitha pal dene ke liye unhe ehesas dilane ke liye hum ek hi hai . Mera lund ekdum kadak ho chuka tha. Mujhe maa ko god me uthane wali baat se itna josh mil raha tha ki mera dimag us baat ki tasbir bana raha tha jiske wajah se main subah subah muth mar raha tha.
Aaj maa ko mujhe jagane ko jarurat nai pada darwaja khultehi maine apna hath hataya.
Off! Main dikhte hi rehegaya maa aaj bahut saji huwe thi agar main do char muth isi abastha me marta toh jarur farik hojata tha lekin asal me aankh band karneka dhong karta raha. Maa hum dono ko jaga rahi thi. bhai to maa ko dikhtehi chilate bola “maa aaj kaha ja rahi ho aap?” Maa yu hi muskurayee. Mera sar dard bilkul gayab hogaya ya maine mehesus nahi kiya. Main vi boldiya “chhotu yeh duniya me savse khubsurat kaun hai?” usne chillate sach jawaf diya “maa”. Bilkul sahi kaha bolke maine chotu ka gaal chuma. Main parivarik mahol me tha. Maine fir pucha “maa ko savse jyada pyar kaun karta hai?” Chotu ne chilate jawaf diya “main karta hu”. Bhai ne apna baji mara. ishbar maa jod se hasi aur mere dil ki dhadkan badadi. Maine fir pucha “aur maa kisko jyada pyar karti hai?” chotu ne fir apne upar baji marte bola “mujhe”. Maa vi hamari samne bethi huwi thi. Maa ne chotu ko dikhte boli “nahi karti hu ish se pyar na time me sota hai na time me jagta hai, padai me first vi nahi aata hai. Ravi bhaiya jesa hona tav karungi tuje pyar.” Mujhe yeh baat sunne me bahut achha laga lekin wo bhavna isme nahi tha. “dekha chotu maa mujhe pyar karti hai” Bhai ghussa hogaya. Maine bhai se puchha “maa kesi dikhti hai?” Bhai ne aankh chhote karte ghusse se maa ke taraf dekha maa ne apne juban nikalte apni do aakh ki putli ko do kinare kardi . Bhai ka hasi chuta lekin mujhe to wo wese karte aur achhi lagithi.
Bhai ko maine maa ke taraf dekhte kaha. “pata hai chotu bahut saal pehele aakash se ek pari ghumne ke liye niche aayee thi. Maa wohi pari jese dikhti hai.” Ishbar maa ki chehera badalgaya fir vi wo sun rahi thi. Bhai ne apne andaj me bola “pari ki to pankh hoti hai. Hain na maa?” Bhai maa ko yese puch raha tha jese ki main sacha bol raha tha lekin baat sahi tha bas unko pankh ki kami thi pari hone ke liye.
Maine jaldi iska jawaf maa ko dikhte kaha. “wo pari ne socha wo do char din idhar ghumegi isliye usne apna pankh rakhliya, bad me pata chala uska pankh to gayab hogai isliye to maa avitak yehi hai.” Bhai maa ke taraf ajib se dekh raha tha. Maa ek pal ke liye gum thi lekin turant khadi hogai aur bhai ko chumte boli “pari ke bête” wo mujhe najar milaye bina bahar nikal gayee. Maine lambi sans feka sach me maa aaj lal saree me saji huwi thi aur saree unki gand me mast kasi huwee dikh rahi thi jiski wajah se mujhe dinvar unko chalte firte dekhne ko dil huwa. Pari kese vi ho jarur maa jese hi dikhte honge.
Bhai mujhe dikhte bola “dekha bhaiya maa jhut bol rahi thi wo mujhe jyada pyar karti hai” wo gaal puch raha tha main samajh gaya maine usko ruk ruk bolke uska hath ko thamliya aur wohi jagame uske gaal me chumma liya, maa ki oth ki mehesusi karte huwe jo kuch der pehele yehi chipkethe.. Jo bahut komal aur rasile the. Aakhir usi maa ke beta to tha gaal puchhte bola “aap ne aur jyada thuk lagadiya.” Mujhe uske baat se hasi laga. Maa kese mujhe chumti thi av to agar wo mujhe chumti vi thi to iska matlab av sadharan nahi hota tha.
Mujhe uspal ka yaad aaya jav maine unko oth jabarjasti chuma tha badale me mujhe jordar tamacha mila tha. Unki oth ki ehesans yesi thi wo ek thappad aur thuk to kya sau thapad vula diya sakta tha . Uspal maine unko ring pehenane ki dil rakha tha lekin mahol pura bigad gaya tha. Kuch vi kaam palak var me kaha hota hai, dhire dhire hi sav kuch hota hai. Kal aur aaj me bahut antar tha yese aanewala kal hoti hai.
Bapu maa ko pyar karte the lekin usse vi jyada unke liye daru mahine rakhta tha, Wo daru ke liye kuch vi kar sakte the, daru unki kamjori ho chukka tha. Wo bapu wohi the jo ghar me pehele ashanti machaya karte the av shant the to wajah daru hi tha jo unko ghar me mil raha tha. Bhai ka lagav bapu se vi jyada mujh se tha. Yeh duniya ki sach hai hum jiske sath jyada rehete hai uske sath hamara lagav vi jyada hota hai.
Av to mujhe had hogayee thi main maa ke liye ekdum sick ho chuka tha. Mujhe unhone chuwa huwa pathar vi devta lagne laga tha unhone pehena kapde to kya sandle vi mujhe bahut achhe lagte the. Aaj maa apni baal ko ek katha karke upar bandhi hui thi jiski wajah se wo ajib si lag rai thi. Mere sath majak ho raha tha mere samne itni khubsurat aurat thi jiske wajah se mujhe dusri aurat me koi dil nai huwi hai aur wo itni kariv hokar vi mujhe bas muth marke kaam chalana pad raha tha.
Sam huwa tha meri pyari maa khana bana rai thi. Jav main rasoi me gaya toh wo bartan saaf kar rai thi. Inko yeh sav karneko jarurat av nai tha fir vi unko isika saukh tha. Wo chahati thi hum bas unki hath ki khana khaye humara dekhval bas wo kare. Aur mujhe vi inko yese kaam karte dikhna bahut achha lagta tha,wo thi hi gharelu aurat. Main darwaje ke kinare khade unhe dikh raha tha. Maa ki pichwadi mere taraf tha. Mujhe kuch kehena tha lekin mujhe unko distrub karne ka dil bilkul nai huwa uspal ya kahu to mujhe unko chupchap dikhna achha lag raha tha. Unki baal piche gol hoke bandhi huwi thi jiske wajah se unki gori gardan dikh achha dikh raha tha. Meri najar fir unki kamar me tika jaha unki kamar thodi andar jakar fir niche bahar faila huwa tha. Maa meri taraf modi unka chehera yeh sabit kar raha tha duniya me jitne vi badi jang aurat ko hasil karne ke liye huwa hai wo bilkul jahej the bebkufi nahi. “kya huwa beta?”Maa apni kaam me lag rai thi. Maa mere nas nas se wakef thi kyu ki usi se to main palavala tha,unko jawaf pata jarur tha unka beta unka sath rehena unke sath baatchit karna aur unko dekhna bahut pasand karta hai.

Main apna do hath bandhkar bas yu hi unse baat karne laga “maa main aap se baat karna chahata hu, bhai ki hostel aur bapu ki bareme main kal vi unhe rok nai paya..”. Maa savjiya dikh rai thi”. Maa yese hi boldi “Ravi hum ghar ki batein usi samay karenge.” Mujhe yehi sunna tha. Ghar ki batein hum pehele vi daily karte the tv ka kamare me kisi pati patni ke tarah hum ghar ki har samasya ki samadhan nikalte the. Aaj main jo vi tha uske pichhe inki bahut badi hath thi. Har insan ke pichhe ek aurat safalta ki raaj banker reheti hai aur mere liye wo raaj meri maa hi thi.
Khana khane ke bad maa ne mujhe khud boli “Ravi bapu ko bas ek glass dena aur tum vi aajkal javtak hosh nakhota tavtak pite ho thoda kam piya karo.” Maharani ki hukum av aake sunna mil raha tha.
Bapu maa se darte the lekin wo kisi vi halat me daru ko chhod nai sakte the. Maa ke sar dusra taraf hote hi bapu mujhe aankh marte sanket kar rahe the 3 ungli se 3 glass ki. Pata nai mujhe maa ki ghussa vi bahut pasand aata tha. Kash wo meri biwi hoto usko aur ghussa deta tha unka rutha huwa chehera ajib banta tha. Wo choti moti baat se rutthi kaha thi bas dikhawana karti thi.
Khane ke bad maa rasoi me chaligai to main bapu ko liptane chala. Bapu ko samjhana muskil tha fir vi wo do glass me man gaye. Mujhe daru pasand hai. Yeh mere sehet ke liye achha tha lekin main pehele maa se baat karneke liye ja raha tha. Bhai kamare me tha kuch likh raha tha. Main jatehi usne “bhaiya aap ko maa ne bulayee hai tv room me.” Bolte chillaya halaki main uske kariv hi tha. Wo hamesa khus dikhta tha. Main vi khus hogaya usko kya laga, bhai fir apna aakh aur sar ghumake bola “lekin baat karne ke liye bas”. Mujhe hasi laga usko to bas tv aur film ka chinta tha kahi hum bas akele akele dikh le.
Main andar gaya maa tv dikh rai thi. Unko dekh ke lag raha tha wo tv nai tasbir dikh rai thi. Mujh me utsah var gaya. Main jisko apni biwi chun raha tha wo kisi vi angle se mast lagti thi. Main to dhuwa dhuwa ho raha tha, Aaj to inke dil me aag lagadena tha. Main unke side me bitha. Mausam thanda tha lekin Tv wali kamare me utna thanda nai tha. “bapu control nai hote maa.” maa ne bapu ki bareme puchhi wo khud vi janti thi av bapu daru nai pi rahe the daru bapu ko pi raha tha. “Ravi iska koi samadhan to hoga.” “haa maa bahut sare organization hai jo kulat aur nase ki aadat chhutane ke liye kaam karte hai. Woha marij ka tarah varna hona padega aap yeh samajhiye wo ek jail ka tarah hai hume unke rule follow karne padte hai” main maa ko ish tarah jankari de raha tha jese Vipin mujhe deta hai kyu ki main jitna vi kamau ghar ki mukhya mantrani to maa hi thi. Maa bapu ko sudhar kendra me rakhne ke baat me jod dene lagi. Humne iski bareme discuss kiye aur natija yehi tha hum dono ko bapu ko manana padega.
Fir baat bhai ki suru huwee. Uske exam result pichle bar utne acha nai raha. Maa bolne lagi “nai beta chotu hamara sath thik hai. Ghar sunsan hota hai.” “maa aap sahi ho lekin hamara pyar mamata uske future liye badha nai hona chahiye. Aap vi janti ho main usko muskil se kisi chij ko mana kar sakta hu aur yehi baat aap ki vi hai. Chhotu pehele vi hostel me rehechuka hai har weekend me toh main khud usko le aaunga. Pata hai maa aaj subah kya bol raha tha?”. Maa bhai ko bahut pyar karti thi isliye bhai ki bareme baat karte hi unka chehera mamata vari muskan se var jata jo mujhe bahut pasand tha. Wo apni aankh badi karke oth me hasi ke sath meri taraf dikhne lagi. Dil kar raha tha avi unko kiss kardu. “aap ke puppy milne ke bad uska rang badalgaya aur mujhe bade saan se bola dekha kisko pyar karti hai!”. Maa hasgayee. “bahut pyara hai na Ravi isliye to usko dur rakhna achhi nai lagti hai. pehele to tumhare bapu vi the.”
Maharani ko av aake khud ki fikar hone lagi thi kahi akele na ho jaau. “Bapu bas raat me the din me toh aap ko akeli rehena padta tha. Sham me to main vi hu” maa chup huwi kahi use dusri khayal aaye ho jo main vi anuman karsakta tha”Ravi, tumko av to sadi karna chahiye.” maa se av chhupa hi kya tha. “ha maa janta hu, aap vi janti ho mera dil me kya hai! Bapu ka apna duniya hai fir vi hum dono unke fikar karte hai, bhai to hum dono ka dil hai.” maa samajh gayee thi “Ravi, fir vi hum maa bete hai,tumhari aur meri duri bas jismani talukhat hi to hai,kya tum bas usko hasil karne ke liye yeh sav batein kar rahe ho?” “nahi maa ” maa ghumafirake yeh savit kar rai thi bas main unke jism se khelna chaha raha hu. Av maine apna dil kholke batadiya. “aap fir maa bansakti ho maa, mujhe apna parivar aapse chahiye. Mujhe chhotu jesa pyara apna bacha chahiye. Mujhe yesi patni chahiye jisko main apna pyar lutakar kavi nathaku aur wo iske liye jahej ho.” Maa fir suru hogayee “Ravi yeh sav thik nahi hai…” Unki fir duniyadari batein mere dil ki geherai se nikle baat ko pagalpan ka daura savit kar rahe the. Av mujhe bardash karna muskil ho raha tha. “Mujhe aap ko taklif nai dena hai,aap meri maa ho. Main janta tha maa fir vi maine apna dil bataya. Ek baat batau maa devta ki jagah aatma hai vala hi aapke sath sadi karne par mera aatma khus ho lekin main vi janta hu aap ki aatma me vi toh devta hai aap aatma ke suniye bahari duniya to Devta ko hi sharminda kardete hai.” maa kuch boli nai lekin main bolta raha. “agar aap ko yesa hi lagta hai to aap ke khatir main kisi dusri ladki ko sadi karlunga maa, Aap vi janti ho Anita ko, Jisko maine job dilaya tha. Maine wo baat mehesusi kiya jo maine kavi nai kiya tha wo job me nai aati to mujhe personally ghussa aata hai.”
Khidki me kuch aawaj aai aur kamare me av thanda aarahatha kash meri maa meri dil ki geherai samajhjati aur ish thanda me mujhe unki sarir me chipakne ka mauka milti lekin av main kisi dusri ladki ke bareme baat karne laga tha. Maa ke sath jo baat main chhed raha tha yeh mujhe sarabi bapu ka baat ki asar tha lekin Anita koi kalpanik ladki nai thi jiske bareme maa vi janti thi. mujhe dar lag raha tha kahi yeh aurat ish baat se aur khus hojaye. “Ravi wohi ladki hai na jiske pita ka dehant huwa tha aur…?” maa ki aawaj sunke lag raha tha av sach me unko thanda lag raha hai. Unki oth thartharaye rahe the aur yeh mera oth sukh raha tha. Kash main wo oth ko garam kar sakta aur yeh oth unki muh se viga sakta. “haa maa, aap ko maine bataya tha uski haal.” “beta kya tumne use bataya ki tum usko chahate ho” Maa ki chehera me khusi dekhkar main nirash hogaya. “Main kisiki ummide badakar use tod nai sakta. Use tav baat karunga jav main uske liye tayar hu.” maa khadi hogai aur apni chutad hilate kuch aage badi. Wo jane anjane me mere hosh udarai thi. Main uski chehera pad nai pa raha tha lekin uski pichwadi mujhe hamesa ki tarah ghayal kar raha tha. Mujhe pichhe se maa ki wo jagah me sar rakhne ka dil huwa. “Beta wo ladki dikhne me kesi hai pata nahi lekin usko tum jesa pati milega to wo khusi se pagal hogi.” maa ki yese baat se mera sar dard hone laga. “Ravi mera baat manlo beta wo ladki ne akeli apna maa aur bhai ko sambhali hai uske sath sadi ki baat karlo beta” maine fir jald jawaf diya “aap ki baat ko main kese ansuna karsakta hu. Bachpan se lekar aajtak aap ka hi sunta aaraha hu mujh me main kam aur aap jyada raaj karti ho.”
kash yesa hota maa manomani karte meri baho me lipat leti duniya ki bharam chhodke lekin mera sakh hakikat hogaya. “Ravi mera lal, main bahut khus hu, yesa mat sochna main tume pyar nai karti hu. Duniya isi tarah hi chalta hai. Tumhara aur mera samaband me sadi paap hai,gunah hai aur pashavik karam hai. Hum khud chahkar vi yeh sav nai kar sakte. Tum khud ko tayar karlo anita ke liye,beta! yeh hi uchit hai”. Mera khade lund par barbar dhoka ho raha tha. Maa thapad marti tav vi yesa mehesus nai huwa hota, Dil yese tuta jese kisi ne sise ki khidki me pathar feka ho. Maine bahut bada gadbad kardiya. Mujhe rona aana chahiyetha. Maa meritaraf dikhne lagi. Wo mere nas nas se wakef thi. “mere laal hum to sath me hai na?” av bolna bekar tha maa apni jidd chhodne wali nai rahi. Mujhe uspal maa ki duniyadari aur samaj wali baat se bahut ghussa aagaya. Mujhe ek pal ke liye yesa laga maa ke sath to bas av balatkar hi kardu. Lekin unki hath ki khana unki muskurahat aur unke mijas ke begair jina mere liye asamvav tha. Maa itne pyari dikh rai thi ki mujhe duniya me sav se badi paap unka dil todna jesa laga.
Av to bolne ke liye yehi bacha tha. Maine udasin muskurahat se bola “aap ki marji maa, aap bahut achhi ho aur khubsurat vi.” Maa puchhne lagi “wo dikhti kese hai?. “Mujhe av unke samne rukna bahut muskil hogaya. Av bas me thanda hi mehesus kar raha tha. Maa ko chhodkar Anita ke bareme bolna suraj ki kiran ko chhodkar chand ki kiran ki tarif karna jesa tha. “maa usse aap ko milaunga aur aap khud kehena, mujhe sardi lag rai hai”. “tumko kesi lagti hai?” Mujhe aasha jagne lagi “achhi hai uske ek khas chij mujhe bahut pasand hai?” Maa mere baat sun rai thi, kash wo Anita ko honewali bahu ke jagah apni sautel ke jagah thanleti aur usse jalti. “wo make up se jyada bin make up kiye aur khubsurat dikhti hai.” pata nai maine kya boldiya maa ne bich me baat taldi aur wall clock dikhte boli “uff! ravi raat kafi huwi hai beta chalo sojate”. Yeh unki ek buri aadat thi yeh jo chij sunna nai chahati to isi tarah baat ko ghumadeti mujhe unki yeh aadat bahut ghussa deta kyu ki kavi kavi adhuri baat dil me davake ghumna padta tha, lekin aaj mujhe bahut achha laga.
Bapu kharate lete so gaye the unko jagna vi kisliye tha. Bhai vi so chuka tha. Main yeh thandi me andar se garam hona chah raha tha. Ek ciggrate muh me leke hath me ek bottle daru pakad ke main tv kamare me gaya aur door lock karke betha. Mujhe tv distrub kar raha tha. Maine tv band kiya. Av main wall clock ki aawaj vi sun sakta tha. Diwar me bhagti hui chhipkali meri taraf dikh rai thi. Main uske wo ajib punch dikhne laga jo kavi khattam nai hoti. Ek thanda hawa ka jhoka khidki se aaya jis ne mujhe Anita ki yaad dilayee. Anita itne pareshan thi bechari kya karti. Uski bahut kosis ke bad main usse milatha. Company me koi vacancy nai tha. Uska chehera aur halat wo garmi me vi barish me vigi huwee jiski kaan me thandi hawa ka jhoka avi vi chal rahe jesi tha. Company me enough staff hote huwe kisi ek ko join karna ka matlav tha kisi dusre insan ka pet me laat marne ka samay. Lekin meri karuna ki sagar maa ko Anita ki kahani me itne dil aayee ki wo mujhe khud davav dene lagi kya huwa uska! Unka din din ka chinta dekhkar mujhe laga inse yesi emotional baat karna bekar hai. maine Anita ko company me join kardiya halaki maa bas Anita ki kahani se bas impress thi. Uspal yesa laga tha aurat bas dil ki sunthi hai lekin sachai to yeh tha meri maa sach me advut thi wo dusreko dard ko apne dard jese samajhti thi aur unka sath vi kuch Anita ka jesa hi hadsa huwa tha.
Ek itni khubsurat ladki jiska sahara bap the aur wo usko chhodke dur jate hai. Kamjor maa ke sath av wo kali ko duniya ke sath ladna padta tha kaam aur rojgar ke liye. Duniya bahut kamini banjati hai jav hum kamjor ho to aur jalim vi hoti hai. Main isme sehemat hu, Sayad wo ladki ko vi yesa laga hoga. Wo pyari khubsurat ladki ko kisi sharavi ki aakh lagti hai aur kitni dukh ki baat hai wo ladki ke liye wo achha avsar banjata hai sadi ke bandhan me badhne ke liye.
Gair jimmewar sharavi ke sath se use wo choti umar me bacha ho jati hai aur usko bada karneka jimmewar bas uska hi hota hai. Wo kitni achhi maa thi meri aankh varne lagi. Usne use pala hi nahi usko sav sikhaya aur aaj uska beta ek kabil mard banchuka hai jiske pash av savkuch hai. Aur wo maa chahati hai wo beta kisi dusri ladki ke sath sadi kare usike sath sojaye. Aur wo maa apni wohi purani jiwan bitaye usi sharavi ke sath sona sona aur akeli. Wo kitni nadan hai wo beta sadi ke bad use utna samay vi de nai sakta jitna sadi ke pehele usko diya karta tha, jarurat alag hoti hai aur pyar alag. Wo kyu apna nahi sochti hai javki uski umar aur uski khubsurati avi vi sadi ke layak hai aur unka wo beta apni maa ko patni ki asali sukh dena khud ke liye sauvagya manta hai.
Mujhe hawa ka ek jhoka ka thapad mila jese ki meri galat soch par maa ne mari ho. Mujhe hasi laga. Main khidki band kiya. Hawane meri hosh khulai. Maine lambi sanse liya aur daru glass me varne laga.
Daru ne dawa ka kaam karne laga. Maa khud vi janti hai wo khubsurat hai aur yeh vi janti hai unka beta hi nahi koi jawan marad unko barbar dikhte hai. Maa yeh vi janti hai bapu sudharne wale nahi hai. Maa yeh vi janti hai unka beta Ravi unke kehene par kuch vi karta hai. Maa yeh vi janti hai sadi ke bad beta bahu ka hota hai. Aur yeh Ravi janta hai Maa ko av kese badalna tha. Maa vi bas duniya ki to baat karti hai yeh nahi bolti ki yesa wo nahi chahati hai.
Sunsan kamare me main apna pant niche karte lund sehelane laga daru ke sath me.
-kal ki saam maa pehele se hi tv kamare me khadi thi. Maa itne saam me vi puri make up me thi jiska kuch to makhsad tha. “Ravi, main kal raat so nai payee beta..” maa ruk gayee wo av sach ka samana kar rahi thi. “beta yeh bahut galat hai fir vi …” maa ko sahas ki jarurat thi unko confess karna tha unka dil ki geherai ne vi wo mehesus kiya jo mera dil ne pehele hi kiya tha. “maa ha main janta hu yeh bahut galat hai. Isse badi galat hi kya hoga duniya me!” Main maa ki pichhe jake unko baho me samagaya. Duniya advut hai sacha pyar ka asar magnet ka tarah hota hai. Maa sanso se bolne lagi “Ravi yeh bahut galat hai beta.” Main unki gaal ko mehesus karne laga tha apni galose “bahut badi galati hai maa bahut badi lekin yeh pyar hai maa. Main aap se pyar karta hu..” Maa ki sanso se wohi baat nikalgaya “duniya kya kahega?” Main soch vi nai pa raha tha kitne jaldi mera lund khada hogaya tha kash maa ki gand aur mera lund ke bich kapde ki diwar nahoti. “duniya hai hi kya maa bas main aur aap savkuch hai. Yeh pagalo ki duniya hai, bapu tumhare layak nahi hai yeh duniya janti hai.” Maa meri lund av mehesus kar rahi thi. “Ravi please beta yesa hona nahi chahiye “ maa ki juban kuch vi bol rahe ho maa mujh par samarpit ho chuki thi. “maa main aap ko bahut pyar karta hu.” Main unki gaal chum raha tha. Mera lund barbar hil raha tha. Iska mujhe kav se intazar tha maharani ke av aake hosh khulatha. Maa ne aahiste se puchhi “Anita kya mujh se khubsurat hai?” “Anita to kya koi pari vi aapki barabari nahi hai maine aapke bareme hi bolatha Anita ke bareme nahi tha aap bin make up aur khubsurat dikhti thi lekin aaj wo vi galat savit kardi aapne.”
Maine maa ko uthaya aur Tv room ke bed me le gaya. Deewar ka ghadi ki aawaj aur av to dhadkan ka aawaj vi tej huwa ho. Mera sanse ful raha tha mujhe maa ki gaal me chumban to mil raha tha oth me chumban dene pe wo bahut jhijak rahi thi. Av unki chuchi vi blouse se aajad hogaye the. Mera lund ekdum tana gaya. Maine apna salo ka pyas mitana samjha aur apni muh lagake unke nipple chusne laga. Main fir apna maa ka chhota bacha ke tarah dudh chusne laga. Maa aahe varne lagi. Main maa ki wo jagah me intrest ho raha tha jaha se meri janam sidd huwi thi. Maa ki saree aur pettikot upar huwa tha. Wo laal ajib si panty me thi jiske karan wo sexy dikh rahi thi. Maine unki chaddi vi nikaldiya. Mujhe unki chut ki darshan nahi huwa wo kafi jhijhak rahi thi. Yeh samay me mujhe lag raha tha mera dil mera badan se alag ho raha hai. Main apne lund maa ki chut ke kariv leke gaya. “beta yeh bahut galat hai.” “kuch nahi hoga, kuch nahi hoga maa. Savkuch thik hoga…” bolte maine apna lund usi jagah ghusadiya jaha se bahar hote main duniya ke andar aaya tha. Itne aananda to swarg me vi milta naho. Main aanand se lautpaut huwa. Meri janghe apne aap upar niche hone lagi aur maa ke sath meri chudai suru hogai. “I love you mum. Mujhe aap se dil se ishq huwa hai.” Main apne dil ke geherai se bol raha tha. “aap ko meri dulhan hona padega maa”. Maa ajib se aawaj nikal rahi thi. Pata nai maa kitne saal ke bad lund le rahi thi. Aur yeh lund vala hi beta ka ho itna mota aur bada tha jisko pane ke liye aurat sivaji ke ling ke hi tapasya karte honge. Mera gati apne aap badgaya av yesa lag raha tha mujhe jitna maa ko chodne me maza aarha tha utna hi maa ko chudwane me. “Ravi main tumhari dulhan banungi “ maa ki rur ruk ke aayee huwee aawaj yehi bol rahi thi unko Santosh mil raha hai aur iska jawaf me mera lund ne pura pani unki chut me utardiya- ishbar vi carpet gandhe hogaye.
Maine glass ki daru ek shot me khattam kiya aur yesi bebkufi vari fantasy se khud ko shant karke sochne laga. Mera makhsad bas ek hi hai aur wo maa hai. Main apna roadmap taya karne laga. Main maa ke sath yesa karne wala tha jo ish duniya me sayad hi kam premi ne apne premika ke sath kare ho.